TW: Discussions of self hurt.
Sure, I do know I’m late and that Self Hurt Consciousness Month was March however my latest submit (in regards to the disastrous ending of my remedy classes) took up a lot time and vitality and emotion that I simply didn’t have the area to jot down anything and definitely not in time for the tip of March. However I did submit this as a part of my latest foray into TikTok and I assumed it summed up my journey fairly effectively so it appeared becoming to share it right here…
It was a shifting expertise to see so many individuals sharing such susceptible tales however I believe the experiences posted possible skewed in the direction of: the entire tales that I noticed ended positively, with the person celebrating being clear of self hurt for nonetheless lengthy. And that’s nice, don’t get me flawed; it’s superb to see individuals share how arduous they’ve labored to maneuver ahead, to course of and heal and get better. However I believe it’s typically the case that those that are nonetheless struggling don’t really feel capable of share resulting from judgement or comparability to these ‘additional down the highway’ or as a result of their tales aren’t conventional ones. I don’t contemplate mine precisely conventional and I believe that’s as a result of my self hurt use has principally been resulting from my Autism and my issue regulating my feelings. So I believe it’s essential to share that have, in addition to the truth that I don’t know what it’s going to seem like sooner or later and the way that could be a scary idea.
I don’t have the solutions and, on this season of my life, I don’t have any poignant, smart phrases both. I’m simply taking it day-to-day as a result of even a single day can really feel overwhelming proper now.
