I’m going via this proper now, so it’s painfully contemporary in my head. I occur to be out of the home early 3 weeks in the past, which is uncommon for me. It was as a result of I had an early medical doctors appointment. One I used to be procrastinating on due to the elevator. I needed to go on to get there, nevertheless it’s seemingly the one manner up & the elevator is de facto outdated. Its from the 1980’s, so it shakes and rumbles. I dread the 40 second experience up there for weeks earlier than, however I made it via that. We name the hair salon & communicate to the hairstylist from my appointment on the medical doctors workplace whereas I’m ready. She say’s to come back after I’m completed since she was squeezing me in. She likes me lots, so I reap the benefits of this chance. I end up quick & we survive the evaluator experience down alive & in a single piece. We get proper on the highway to my subsequent appointment & I’m not even scared. I’m extra excited & raring to go, can’t wait to get there. We had been solely there as soon as earlier than as a result of this different hair salon actually tousled my hair by slicing it uneven. The hairstylist denied it. It was pouring rain and we went to a different salon earlier than, however she was busy with one other buyer & wouldn’t see us with out an appointment. So we desperately drove within the pouring rain & discovered this salon. I used to be able to go to Supercuts as a final resort, like nobody can lower hair even at the moment.
So this salon took me, fastened the uneven hair higher than earlier than, & charged me solely $15 as a result of it was an emergency. That’s all my brother had left on him because the different place modified $25. So, we return there 3 weeks in the past and my brother Larry was having hassle discovering the place. I beloved my stunning lengthy hair a lot. I missed the sensation of my mushy, lengthy hair round my shoulders. The final time that the hairstylist lower it, it was barely longer within the entrance & one aspect barely longer within the again. I’m undecided if this comes with Autism or not, however I discover each little single element. I’ve O.C.D. & I’m the last word perfectionist about all the pieces, particularly my hair & bangs. I solely wished a slight trim to chop off the unevenness, about an inch round. Simply to even it out & have it barely shorter within the entrance, nothing particular. I believed it will look higher and that I might really feel higher.
Hair is all the time an enormous deal. I don’t assume it issues when you’ve got Autism or not, however hair is a serious massive deal to everybody youngsters & adults. It represents who you might be. Change is particularly traumatic for these of us who’ve Autism. Change in something, together with routines, hair, clothes, and even new footwear. It’s exhausting to should get used to one thing new, however hair is the toughest by far. It’s a part of you & your id. I believe it’s hardest for women & girls, as a result of most males, however have quick hair, & even a nasty haircut isn’t so dangerous, as a result of in a month or 2 it’s going to develop again anyway & you get a brand new trim. Girls have lengthy hair, generally it may possibly take just a few years to develop again lengthy, that’s like perpetually.
So, on the way in which to seek out the hair salon, my brother will get misplaced & will get 2 cellphone calls whereas being misplaced: one from my dad and mom pal wanting assist with one thing and one other from his a lot older pal complaining about his morning. All this occurred whereas we’re looking for the hair salon. I’m pleased to be out. I look good too with good, lengthy, stunning hair. It felt good to concur my elevator worry, however I’m like, “I’m not going again there, we have to discover one other physician.” This physician & nurse is sweet although, I received a complete bunch of Paw Patrol stickers, Disney stickers, Troll Stickers, plus just a few Dum Dum Lolli pops. He’s an ENT for youths & adults. Larry finds the strip mall & parks. Fortunately I run forward & search for it, I’m trying in all of the shops on the strip, however I can’t discover it. I’m excited, however beginning to get nervous. Then I’m searching for my brother and I can’t discover him. I’m confused & fearful, so I run again to the automobile. He’s not there, however there may be development males strolling. They give the impression of being a bit scary, however then I discover an older girl in her 50’s & inform her I’m misplaced. I mentioned I used to be supposed to fulfill my brother on the hair salon & I can’t discover him. I ask her if she may please name him, however she walks me to the hair salon and my brother is in there fortunately on the cellphone speaking to my father or mother’s pal and sitting down, having no thought I used to be lacking. The woman left, however I by no means received an opportunity to thank her. Larry thought I used to be within the lavatory. I’m now unnerved. The woman appeared good & I did go to the lavatory after.
I requested Larry to take a photograph of my earlier than hair, however he didn’t need to and the hairstylist quickly took me again. I’m glad I didn’t have to attend lengthy. I wished to get this over with & I didn’t even eat breakfast but, so I used to be fearful about hypoglycemia. I generally get low blood sugar after I haven’t eaten & I’m nervous & overwhelmed. I didn’t need to have a close to fainting spell. It occurs generally, however fortunately not too typically. She places a fabric round me after which I’m nervous about if it been washed. I don’t say something although. She’s brushing out my hair, I inform her, simply an inch off round & barely shorter within the entrance. My hair is barely knotty, so I inform her to spray on a lot of water. My hair is wavy, curly & I would like it straight so it’s even. She say’s she’s happening trip subsequent week, has a number of shoppers at the moment, & she was simply squeezing me in. I need to cease and go away, however no. I’ve excessive hopes that she’s going to do wonderful job. I additionally don’t look good with out bangs, so I wished her to chop these too. They had been now all the way down to my nostril because it was lower 10 months in the past, however I lower it manner too quick & messed it up, so nobody may repair them till they grew again. I look 10 years older with out bangs. With bangs I may simply go for my early 20’s. I look younger for my age anyway.
She cuts my hair, however one aspect is longer. I inform her and he or she cuts extra, nevertheless it’s getting too quick and I would like it even. That is my hair. I like & it took a 12 months to develop again. She has no endurance & needs to see how briskly she will be able to end. I discover this terribly upsetting. I might lower it slowly & gently. I inform her about my bangs. The half she makes is uneven so I inform her. She cuts them after which tells me to brush it out & search for any uneven hairs whereas she works on one other older girl. I’m the youngest within the store in addition to her 20 one thing 12 months outdated daughter. She’s good, however tremendous busy. I do discover extra uneven hairs, she tries her finest to repair them, however my hair is getting shorter & nonetheless not too even. I’m not pleased & sorry I went to get my hair lower. She tries to repair my bangs higher at my request, however I strive to not let on I’m not pleased. Perhaps she will be able to inform. She lastly finishes and I’m pleased I didn’t faint. I wager I might have if she washed my hair since that makes me nervous. I take a look at the ground and it appears like she took over 2 inches off, however I mentioned just one inch. She requested me what I pays, I mentioned $20 and he or she gladly accepted. She mentioned I’ll see you subsequent 12 months and Larry & I left.
As soon as at house, I rinsed out the hairspray. I’ve many sensory points too. I regarded for uneven hairs as I rinsed my hair with faucet water & brushed it out, I discovered just a few & pulled off the ends. Then one aspect within the entrance was uneven and I used a nail clipper to make it the identical as the opposite aspect. That evening, Larry received me a pleasant dinner of angel hair pasta in a lemon piccata sauce with a aspect of meatballs & tomato sauce. My brother tries his finest & is sweet to me. My uneven bang half & bangs make me sad. Now I’ve to strive my finest to make the half completely even and making each hair completely aligned. I had this downside about completely even hair ever since I used to be 10 years outdated. My grandma was too outdated to maintain slicing my hair, so I began slicing my very own hair since my household was kinda poor & we couldn’t afford a hair salon again then.
I used to be up all evening fixing my bangs half. I labored on it 6 hours, however that’s fairly regular for me, possibly greater than typical. I had begged Larry for the nice scissors & he gave them to me. I nonetheless was sad with the job I did on my bangs. I additionally thought my haircut was uneven. I saved pondering that I want I by no means received it lower. So after I wakened the subsequent afternoon unhappy & upset when Larry referred to as round searching for one other hair salon to repair it. One didn’t reply, however one other one did. I saved saying no although as a result of they charged $98 and we actually can’t afford a lot, however he wished to make me really feel higher. So I rapidly received prepared & we left early. I’m often late for all the pieces, however this was essential. It was an extended 20 minute drive, nevertheless it was 4.8 stars so positively with the journey. I’m burdened & nervous within the automobile to undergo all this once more, the slicing and the checking. I’m very explicit. What in the event that they mess it up extra & it’s no good?
We lastly get there, however we did get misplaced as soon as & ended up in a firehouse station. That’s par for the course. We lastly get to the best place & I run in. This place is wealthy & appears actually excessive finish, how good. I exploit the lavatory whereas we wait, they mentioned the proprietor wished to speak to me. I’m excited and I do seem like the youngest there. Everybody sort of regarded & smiled at me. The gorgeous proprietor requested to speak to me, I informed her what occurred & she may inform I used to be upset & emotional. She thought my bangs had been too quick, extreme, & there was nothing she may do. She informed me to come back again in just a few weeks once they develop out extra & there may be extra to work with. I did do job on them they thought, however too quick. I used to be sort of relived they weren’t going to traumatize me anymore, however we went there for nothing & I did need all the pieces evened out. I used to be pleased to depart although. I did avoid wasting cash for a brand new doll, my curiosity. Larry received me Poppies for dinner & we went house, all in all day.
Now right here I’m, a brand new weeks later penning this and I nonetheless really feel the uneven half was pulling & pinching, despite the fact that it regarded comparatively good. I had been engaged on the bangs half not too long ago & felt I lastly received the half even so it didn’t tug and pinch. Larry determined to provide me the scissors to make me pleased. I believed I may get the half & bangs completely even so I might really feel pleased. I might shine & have would have extra self-worth. I used to be incorrect as my head hung low and failed. Not solely did I’ve to make use of an excessive amount of lengthy hair to make the brand new bang half even, however now my lengthy hair is thinner, the half nonetheless isn’t completely even, it’s worse & even pinches & itches extra, possibly from puling at all of it evening, I dono, I’ve so many sensory points, nobody else would discover. I’m so sad to have so many bangs & it was higher earlier than, however now it’s going to take a 12 months to develop again & I’m debating if I ought to return to the hair salon to have it fastened or see what they’ll do. I’m not pleased & wakened wishing Larry didn’t give me the scissors. I really feel depressed, horrible, & he solely wished to make me really feel happier. I’ve been brushing & wetting my bangs, praying they develop again now. This month has appeared so lengthy, simply ready for my hair & bangs to develop again. I simply hope my bangs develop again tremendous quick. I assume I must change into fixated & obsessive about one thing else or I received’t have a lot hair left. I’m fortunate my hair tends to develop quick, however proper now it’s not rising in any respect. Can anybody relate to my hair struggles?
Christian Berman is an Autistic artist. He has a YouTube Channel referred to as “The Adventures of the Little Harmonic”.
