The Companion’s ‘Stargate 60 for 60 Watchalong Problem’ for Embracing Psychological Well being as a Fandom

NOTE: This can be a very particular publish that entails quite a lot of dialogue concerning the present Stargate SG-1 and the teachings to be realized from numerous episodes. I do know this received’t be a publish for everybody so, if it isn’t for you, please be happy to skip it and watch for the following publish; will probably be coming quickly. However I actually wanted to do that publish for me, as this problem has actually supported my psychological well being during the last couple of months and so I wished to archive it right here.

TW: Temporary mentions of melancholy and suicidal ideas.

Within the run as much as the launch of the kickstarter for Embracing Psychological Well being as a Fandom, a collaborative e book between Amanda Tapping and The Companion, the latter set a number of challenges to lift consciousness for the fundraiser and the e book. The problem I took half in was the ‘60 for 60 Problem,’ which concerned watching sixty episodes of Stargate SG-1 – with the final episode coinciding with the launch of the kickstarter – after which discussing the themes and classes of every episode on social media with different Companions.

As a result of a lot has been occurring in my life not too long ago, my postings on social media and the discord have been fairly sporadic so I made positive to doc my progress and my ideas on this weblog publish.

As we watched every episode, we have been inspired to search for psychological well being and private development classes…

14th March:

• Summit (5.15) – I really feel like the plain lesson from this one is to by no means belief somebody who refuses to provide you the entire particulars: how will you belief somebody who solely tells you half of the story, who solely provides you the main points they need to share or assume that you want to know? It could possibly make friendships, for instance, not possible; no relationship can develop with out honesty and belief.
• Solitudes (1.17) – I like this episode: Jack and Sam stranded on an ice planet whereas the SGC attempt to discover and rescue them. The apparent message is to at all times be sure to have Sam Carter with you if you get stranded, however that’s not significantly relevant to actual life, is it? A extra lifelike lesson is likely to be that there’s at all times one thing else you possibly can attempt, that there’s at all times one other strategy to an issue, and that you simply need to encompass your self with individuals who you possibly can belief not to surrender on you.

At this level, prompts have been launched to provide individuals a dialogue level, which made for a extra structured evaluation of the episodes, tales, and characters…

• Pretense (3.15) – There are such a lot of classes to be realized from the Tollan race and their rigidity. Their behaviour clearly demonstrates that vanity can blind you to even the obvious truths and that refusing to be fallacious can flip a small a small drawback right into a a lot greater one. And Teal’c’s behaviour demonstrates that there’s a time for loyalty and following the foundations however typically we additionally must recognise when it’s time to throw the rulebook out of the window and do the appropriate factor.

PROMPT: Conceitedness is a big theme close to the Tollan, however self esteem is essential to doing wonderful work. The place is the steadiness?

Equally to my unique ideas on the episode, it’s the Tollan’s absolute refusal to consider that they might presumably be fallacious that proves to be their undoing; their vanity and rigidity don’t permit for any doubt and I believe it’s doubt, or a minimum of questioning oneself, that permits us to develop and make extra thought of, extra nuanced selections. Being extra open to totally different opinions and totally different interpretations permits us to be extra assured in ourselves and in our selections as a result of, by being open, we all know that we’ve achieved all that we are able to to take the most effective step ahead.

fifteenth March:

• Final Stand (5.16) – Persevering with from ‘Summit’ (5.15), Daniel tries to disrupt the Goa’uld assembly whereas Lieutenant Elliot, carrying the Tok’ra symbiote, Lantash, information the remainder of SG-1 out of the collapsing Tok’ra base to security. It’s a very good, stable episode however the factor that caught out most to me was how incredible the appearing of each Amanda Tapping (Sam Carter) and Courtenay J. Stevens (Lieutenant Elliot) was; their performances have been actually shifting.

PROMPT: What’s your greatest lesson in Final Stand?

As I famous after watching Summit, a transparent lesson from each episodes is that you simply shouldn’t ever totally belief somebody who refuses to inform you the entire story, who doesn’t think about you necessary sufficient to share the entire particulars with. Daniel additionally demonstrates how necessary it’s to be adaptable and Lieutenant Elliot’s storyline conveys to us how necessary it’s to having that means to your life and the way necessary it’s to say the necessary issues whilst you nonetheless can.

• Fragile Steadiness (7.03) – This isn’t one in every of my favorite episodes, story-wise, however I do benefit from the comedy of it, particularly how a lot the remainder of SG-1 are having fun with Jack being ‘aged-down’ to fifteen. And Michael Welch, who performs ‘Younger Jack,’ is so good at recreating Jack’s mannerisms and speech sample and humour; it’s a incredible efficiency.

PROMPT: How would you re-live your life in 2024 as a 15-year-old?

The thought of being fifteen in 2024 is a terrifying one. I actually can’t think about how anybody, however particularly kids and youngsters, might be well-adjusted whereas rising up and forming their identification with every part occurring proper now: the social stress and misinformation circulating on social media, the continuing trauma from the pandemic, the political nightmare that we’re residing in, the genocides we’re witnessing whereas having the ability to take action little to make a distinction. It’s an terrible time to be residing in, one I by no means imagined, and, as a lot as I’m combating it, I can’t think about what it’s wish to be rising up with this being ‘regular.’

But when I have been to return to the 2010s and be fifteen once more… that’s a really totally different query. Often after I take into consideration one thing like this, I’m questioning what issues would’ve been like if I’d been recognized autistic again, however I don’t assume that is what the query is asking. If I awoke and was abruptly fifteen once more… I actually don’t know. It’s such an amazing thought. With every part I’ve simply written, I believe I’d be crushed underneath the burden of every part occurring on the planet proper now, much more so than I’m as an grownup.

seventeenth March:

• Honest Recreation (3.03) – One other episode a couple of political summit with the Goa’uld? Individuals actually voted these ones as the most effective episodes?! These are among the most boring to me and I sort of can’t consider that these made the ‘better of’ record, particularly taking a look at among the episodes that weren’t even included.  The machinations between the Goa’uld System Lords is attention-grabbing although and I get pleasure from it as an episode as soon as the ‘negotiating’ ends and the motion begins.

PROMPT: This episode begins with Sam Carter being promoted to the rank of Main. Actually, a seeing is believing second. Who evokes you?

I used to be the primary to publish in response to the immediate, joking that we have been in all probability all going to call Amanda Tapping: we have been, in any case, all there as followers of hers. One of many founders of The Companion commented that he in all probability ought to have specified somebody different than her. She is a hero of mine so, when requested about who evokes me, my reply could be Amanda Tapping.

But when the query is ‘Who evokes you apart from Amanda Tapping?’ I’d have say that there are a number of individuals who encourage me: my Mum for extra causes than I can record; Daisy Johnson from Brokers of Protect for a number of causes, together with her energy and her means to at all times get again up when she’s knocked down, and Chloe Bennet for her appearing means and her kindness; Taylor Swift for her songwriting ability, her creativity, her need to be taught and experiment, and her heat and openness; my buddies for his or her creativity, for his or her willpower, for his or her kindness; and that’s only a few. There are positively extra.

nineteenth March:

• Evolution: Half 1 (7.11) – Ah, the primary look of the tremendous troopers. The present did such a very good job of creating them actually, actually intimidating.
• Evolution: Half 2 (7.12) – The brand new menace is basically attention-grabbing and, in fact, it’s very cool to see Sam in cost. Studying all that she did underneath Jack O’Neill, I believe she in all probability ought to’ve been promoted to Lt. Colonel a lot earlier however the writers clearly didn’t need to break up the staff.

PROMPT: That is the tremendous soldier episode, nevertheless it’s additionally when Sam Carter will get her first command of SG-1. What methods or instruments are you able to share when thrust in cost? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

Technically, this isn’t fairly proper since Sam was given command of SG-1 for the primary time in ‘Spirits’ (2.13) when she was nonetheless a Captain. However I do actually love seeing Sam in cost. She’s realized quite a bit as Jack’s second in command and brought on a lot of his qualities as a frontrunner (his sarcasm typically included) however she’s additionally very a lot her personal individual together with her personal strengths. Whereas Jack’s strategy was at all times (or a minimum of often) analytical to a sure diploma, her analytical strategy is sort of totally different. I suppose what I’m attempting to say is that they’ve most of the similar expertise (a few of which she did be taught from him) however they typically use them fairly in a different way, each with profitable outcomes. It’s an attention-grabbing comparability.

Personally, particularly as an autistic individual, I believe clear communication and a willingness to hear are among the most necessary expertise an individual can have when in cost. With out these, a scenario can devolve into chaos in a short time. However I additionally assume it’s necessary to foster respect for everybody in their very own roles in order that when one individual contributes, their data and expertise are listened to and given the respect they deserve.

• Descent (6.03) – I actually love this episode, I believe due to the entire staff interactions; there’s simply one thing about it that feels actually pure and playful. I significantly just like the forwards and backwards between Jack and Sam: going through very close to drowning with humour may be very them however feels fairly notable contemplating what a excessive stakes scenario it was. Nobody freaks out; they simply roll with it. (Though they most actually all might have achieved with counselling a number of occasions!) I additionally just like the fixed drawback fixing side of the storyline, particularly as soon as the ship begins flooding.

PROMPT: Jonas lastly will get assigned to a mission and but has to take a seat on the sidelines. How have you ever handled conditions on a staff the place you are feeling like you would contribute extra, however weren’t given the chance? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’ve typically felt like this, like I might accomplish that a lot if I used to be solely given the chance (and sometimes if individuals would solely look previous their first impressions of me: disabled, autistic, and so on). So typically I really feel like, if I simply had one one who could be prepared to consider in me, then I might get a lot additional with my music as a result of it’s extremely arduous to be an unbiased artist and it’s even more durable to be a disabled unbiased artist.

twenty first March:

• Between Two Fires (5.09) – Tollana have reversed their coverage of not sharing know-how with much less superior races and provided Earth one in every of their ion canons in trade for Trinium. The SGC debate the provide however Sam determines that only one would in the end do extra hurt than good: they’d want thirty-eight to adequately shield Earth, excluding again ups. The truth that Tollana’s authorities even think about it’s simply deeply suspicious. They uncover that the canons don’t work, that the Goa’uld have found out how you can counteract them. The Goa’uld, Tanith, has been forcing the federal government’s hand; they consider that, by doing what he needs and constructing explosives for him, they’re in the end defending Tollana. SG-1 kinds a plan with Narim and he blows up the constructing with the bombs inside. The staff manages to flee by the Stargate because the Goa’uld assault Tollana, probably destroying the planet.

PROMPT: Tollana’s authorities actually function in a poisonous work surroundings, don’t they? How have you ever overcome a extremely bureaucratic work surroundings? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

It looks as if the Tollan, of their quest for effectivity, have turn into poisonous in some ways: their rigidity, their vanity and superiority, Narim’s obsession with Sam isn’t precisely wholesome… after which, in fact, every part that occurs on this episode. The entire society has turn into extraordinarily poisonous. (There are some ‘penalties’ of their so-called good society that appear fairly unlikely, no crimes dedicated like homicide or rape, for instance. Being a technologically superior society wouldn’t finish crimes like that. And calling the act of the federal government mendacity to the individuals ‘worse than homicide’ is simply wild, significantly at this second in time when the federal government does nothing however deceive the individuals.)

This can be a arduous query. I wouldn’t say that the music business is essentially bureaucratic nevertheless it’s positively poisonous, That’s to not say that the entire individuals are poisonous however there are some actually terrible methods in place that serve solely the very best positions whereas the songwriters, musicians, photographers, videographers, and so on typically make little or no cash, regardless of being the creators that every part rests upon. It’s additionally extremely troublesome to interrupt into the business as an unbiased artist for the reason that larger ups choose the business as it’s, somewhat than letting it evolve as music making itself has. It’s deeply irritating. However I believe that each one you are able to do is deal with making your artwork and attempting to construct an viewers that loves it; I believe the one method we are able to change issues is to do them in a different way and let the change occur as a consequence, particularly in such an enormous business.

• Kids Of The Gods (1.01 & 1.02) – Understandably, there’s SO MUCH world constructing on this episode. There’s additionally the dreaded ‘reproductive organs’ line however in some way, Amanda Tapping manages to drag it off with out making you need to cringe your self out of your pores and skin. Sam is so lovable and so enthusiastic about every part associated to the Stargate; the ‘science twins’ are simply so humorous and cute. And second between Jack and Teal’c when Jack guarantees that he can save the hostages – the second that convinces Teal’c to betray every part he’s ever identified for the tiniest probability that he can free his individuals – is so highly effective and shifting. We be taught a lot on this first episode and it actually set the present in movement with a number of storylines and new characters to study.

PROMPT: A significant early theme is Daniel coping with the Cassandra Advanced, being proper about aliens and but no person believes him. When this occurs to us, this leads us to emotions of frustration and confusion. Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

Because the present begins with proof that Daniel is proper, I believe grief is a stronger theme right here. Jack has misplaced Skaara who is sort of a son to him (and goes on to lose Kawalsky); Daniel has misplaced Sha’re, Skaara, and his life on Abydos, and Teal’c has misplaced every part. And though Sam hasn’t instantly misplaced every part, her life has dramatically modified too. The writers don’t spend a lot time on this in any respect, although it could’ve been overwhelming for all of them. Plus they’re abruptly going through what should’ve felt like an not possible menace. It will’ve been really easy to simply surrender and simply collapse underneath the burden of all of it. I don’t assume I realised till this rewatch how darkish and heavy the start of the present is.

twenty second March:

• The Torment of Tantalus (1.11) – A lot of the mythology of the present is established on this episode and there are such a lot of attention-grabbing themes to the story: there’s a lot world-building; there’s a lot about identification, given how Ernest misplaced every part when he was marooned and the way he imagined Catherine in order to not be alone; Sam, at this very early level within the present, carries the burden of saving all of them when she has to repair know-how that she has so little understanding of and expertise with; Daniel’s frustration on the lack of a lot potential data and Ernest’s sensible query of whether or not data is value it if it could’t be shared. It’s not an episode that I’d’ve ranked excessive on my record of favourites nevertheless it’s so good and so thoughtfully written, acted, and produced.

PROMPT: Following on from yesterday’s subject of individuals not believing you, share any tales and instruments on the way you’ve been affected person and located methods to win individuals over. Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

An instance that jumps out at me immediately is how I satisfied my psychiatrist to discover each BPD and Autism by presenting him with a stack of analysis at nineteen. I wasn’t attempting to persuade him I had both particularly however I wished to indicate him that they have been value investigating: if I associated to a lot of the out there details about each circumstances, certainly he ought to a minimum of think about them somewhat than brush them off as unlikely. I used to be finally recognized with each, though the traits of BPD have been later absorbed by my diagnoses of ASD and CPTSD. Arguing with him wouldn’t have modified his thoughts however compiling as a lot analysis as attainable and giving him tangible motive to alter his thoughts was far more efficient.

• Ripple Impact (9.13) – I LOVE THIS EPISODE SO MUCH (and I like desirous about how they made it). Common Hammond describing the SGC as “the Grand Central Station of the multiverse” at all times makes me chuckle.  The a number of Sams scenario is so cool however so humorous and I like Cam and Sam’s dialog about there being so a lot of her (“Did she simply say ‘we’?” “Uh, me and myself.” “Lastly somebody who can sustain with you?” “Yep.”). It will be so fascinating to speak to variations of your self from alternate universes, however so extremely bizarre too. After which they get to see Janet once more! And Martouf too nevertheless it’s the Janet reunion that at all times makes me squeal; it’s so candy to see how extremely moved all of them are to see her once more. Getting everybody again to their very own realities is a big drawback to resolve and, as standard, the burden falls on Sam (though a minimum of this time there’s a couple of of her) however the stress of that – to constantly give you complicated options to by no means earlier than seen issues, to so typically be the one mind between the earth and a horrible destiny – sounds insufferable. The way in which the episode performs out with our staff and the primary staff to return by from a special actuality is so intelligent and humorous and the ending with the entire goodbyes is basically pretty. It’s one of many episodes that I simply by no means get tired of.

PROMPT: Reuniting with misplaced buddies. What’s one thing you would like you would share with somebody you’ve misplaced or misplaced contact with? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

If I might speak to anybody, it could be my Dad. He died after I was 13, earlier than I’d actually even turn into a my very own individual but, and what I wouldn’t give to take a seat down with him and discuss every part that’s occurred within the final sixteen years. Generally I sit and picture what it could’ve been wish to have him current for the entire large moments – and the small moments – of my life nevertheless it’s by no means sufficient as a result of I solely ever had a toddler’s notion of him: it was adoring however restricted. I by no means knew him as a complete individual, similar to he by no means bought to know me as a complete individual.

• Prometheus (6.11) – I do discover it fairly unbelievable that anybody thought it could be a good suggestion to let a information crew wherever close to something SGC associated, even with somebody poking round. However for some weird motive, they do and, in fact, it leads to the Prometheus getting hijacked. It’s cool to have an episode set on the ship, to see them utilizing the options of the ship within the story. The staff handle to cease the hijackers however the ship has been programmed to leap into hyperspace and so they do not know the place in area they’re. And so as to add to their issues, Thor chooses that second to look and ask them for assist, the Replicators having taken over their residence world.

PROMPT: The episode opens with Sam unexpectedly confronted with an intense allegation, and but she offers with it calmly. She might have simply been defensive, gotten indignant, and even aggressive. How have you ever handled confrontation and allegation and any instruments to maintain calm? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I HATE confrontation so I don’t typically have to speak myself out of it; extra typically, I’ve to push myself to face up for myself. I’ve been getting higher at that not too long ago as a result of I do know I don’t should be handled like that however I nonetheless discover it very hectic and upsetting.

twenty third March:

• Foothold (3.14) – I like this episode as a result of Sam is simply superior from starting to finish, saving the entire SG-1 (and in the end the planet). When the staff come again from a mission, they’re instantly sedated, an unknown race having taken over the SGC by disguising themselves because the SGC employees. However Teal’c symbiote and Sam’s expertise with Jolinar stop them from being utterly incapacitated and Teal’c helps Sam escape to get assist. Teal’c is basically tortured and Sam is gaslit by everybody she talks to: all of them declare {that a} chemical spill is making her delusional and paranoid and for a second, she virtually believes it. Jack, Daniel, Maybourne, and Sam head again to the SGC and it’s a frequency on the aircraft that reveals Jack and Daniel to be imposters. It’s so cool to see how Sam figures all of these items out, even underneath intense stress, discovering options and adjusting them as her understanding of the scenario modifications. It’s so, so cool. It’s an important Sam episode, each when it comes to motion and dialogue: forgetting that she’s disguised as Daniel and shouting at Maybourne – “Maybourne, you might be an fool daily of the week. Couldn’t you may have taken simply someday off?” (iconic) – are specific highlights.

PROMPT: Imposters! An ideal alternative to debate this subject in any method you’d like. Feeling like an imposter, coping with faux individuals, imposter syndrome… Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I don’t assume I’ve something to say about imposter syndrome that anybody else received’t have already stated however the ongoing gaslighting of Sam actually resonates with me. She’s advised over and over that what she’s experiencing isn’t actual and I actually relate to that: I’ve been advised by so many medical and therapeutic professionals that what I’m experiencing is regular, isn’t an enormous deal, one thing I simply must recover from or simply stay with… It’s terrible nevertheless it additionally actually wears you down. It’s arduous to maintain combating towards that ignorance and unkindness when it’s so fixed. I often find yourself placing it above my very own wants, which simply makes every part worse.

• Fallen (7.01) – So Daniel has appeared on a random planet, with none of his recollections (or garments). It will be so unusual to have everybody know you if you don’t know your self. Jack is hilarious, as standard. With the entire emotional, staff stuff, the Goa’uld battle felt virtually secondary, though Jonas being captured is a really ominous starting to the sequence.

PROMPT: Daniel’s return means the reunion of the unique SG-1 staff, solely Daniel doesn’t bear in mind something. Generally, as buddies drift aside, the reunion might be powerful and awkward. Mates and classmates bear in mind issues in a different way. How do you reconnect? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’ve by no means actually skilled this so I assumed I’d pull at a special thread: how our recollections form our identities. Daniel is sort of totally different with out his recollections of Earth, Abydos, Sha’re, and SG-1 and his fears about remembering who he actually is are so legitimate. I’m petrified of forgetting issues, of forgetting the issues which have actually knowledgeable who I’m; how would that have an effect on my identification? I’m unsure I’ve the phrases to elaborate additional on this concept however I can solely think about how troublesome it could’ve been for Daniel to have these unusual individuals seem out of nowhere and inform him that they know him, that they will inform him who he’s and the sudden anxiousness of whether or not or not he truly needs to know.

1st April:

• Beachhead (9.06) – The staff taking part in basketball collectively is so cute; it’s good seeing them hanging out collectively of their off time. It made me miss Sam (thank god, she was again from in a while within the episode). I actually don’t like Common Landry; it doesn’t assist him that Don S. Davis was so, so good as Common Hammond however there’s simply one thing about him that makes my pores and skin crawl. Daniel and Vala are hilarious; it’s like Daniel’s attempting to corral a extremely naughty cat or a bored toddler. SG-1’s plan would have failed if not for Vala, who was probably transported to the Ori galaxy for her efforts. She’s an attention-grabbing character, regardless of how typically she was relegated to ‘the bouncy, quirky woman.’ I really feel like they might’ve actually developed her backstory in the event that they’d devoted a while to it; we all know that she’s been by quite a bit so there was story to work with. She appears like essentially the most trope dependent and least developed foremost character on the present.

PROMPT: There isn’t a reasoning with a Prior of the Ori and the disagreements can turn into so hostile. It’s a mirrored image we see immediately in information and social media. Some individuals can get so indignant and in some way violence has turn into a suitable answer. The fact is most individuals are good  individuals. What are some methods you consider we are able to stay in a greater world the place we are able to disagree and but nonetheless stay peacefully collectively?

This can be a actually large query so I doubt that I can give you any half-decent reply. However I typically consider the Amanda Tapping quote: “The most effective factor you are able to do is to make your nook of the world nearly as good as attainable.” The world might be an terrible and terrifying place however I believe that, if we deal with what we are able to do, that’s extra more likely to have an effect on constructive change than if we let ourselves get overwhelmed by how huge the conflicts and troubles might be.

• 200 (10.06) – (For some motive, this episode known as ‘Keep in mind When’ on Amazon Prime, which is bizarre? Anyway.) I used to hate this episode however now I discover it hilarious; I believe I simply wanted to determine how you can recognize it for what it’s. Jack has bought SG-1 roped into reviewing the Wormhole X-treme film script, which is past ridiculous. After which, simply as they assume they’ve escaped the duty and head out on a mission, the gate breaks down and so they’re caught wanting on the script. It’s simply wild and whereas I don’t love the clips – the reimagining of The Wizard of Oz, of Star Trek, with youthful actors, and so forth – I like watching the staff work together as they decide by the script; they’re so humorous and the face appearing alone is good. The invisible Jack scene is hilarious and I like that they hold milking the fishing scene. And, in fact, there’s the marriage: Sam and Jack getting married. The way in which they take a look at one another proper after that scene ends is so humorous, like they know simply how the marriage actually went. The quantity of inside jokes and fourth wall breaking that they do all through the episode: “all these writers and so they couldn’t give you something higher” from Sam is so humorous contemplating what number of writers are listed on this episode; “throw up the title and get on with it” after which they do exactly that; Teal’c’s “I don’t perceive why every part should inevitably explode” with a very straight face; Sam’s incredulity – “You’re counting?!” – at Cam counting his gate journeys (which did make me surprise simply what number of gate journeys she’s achieved and tempt me to observe the entire present once more simply to depend); the jokes about Farscape are so humorous, on condition that that was Ben Browder and Claudia Black’s present earlier than they joined Stargate; “act three simply ends!” and it does; I’m by no means positive in the event that they’re simply teasing Cam about him being born on account of their journey to 1969; Martin speaking a couple of large twist after which Jack walks by the door; speaking about TV ideas inside a TV present simply makes for thus many humorous facet eye moments; the episode ending with Martin shouting that the film’s been cancelled however that they’ve renewed the sequence, which I’m fairly positive is what occurred with Stargate. Possibly? The episode ends with Sam fixing the gate and SG-1, plus Jack, Landry, and Walter going by (there’s a cake on the opposite facet to have fun Cam’s two hundredth gate journey). However then there’s some bizarre further stuff from the set of Wormhole X-treme whereas they’re making their two hundredth episode with the film again on: the entire individuals on set are literally administrators and writers and so forth and the faux forged make so many jokes concerning the present (and Stargate SG-1, the present). They finish with the Isaac Asimov quote: “Particular person science-fiction tales could seem as trivial as ever to the blinder critics and philosophers of immediately – however the core of science fiction, its essence… has turn into essential to our salvation if we’re to be saved in any respect.” It’s a poignant finish.

PROMPT: What’s essentially the most ‘X-treme’ factor you’ve ever achieved? C’mon, secrets and techniques don’t make buddies… Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I actually don’t assume I’ve ever achieved something significantly excessive; excessive simply isn’t fulfilling for me. I’ve achieved a handful of issues that I might in all probability describe as unusual, like going to a number of dates of a Taylor Swift tour or seeing Sara Bareillies in Waitress a number of occasions or going to fulfill Amanda Tapping at a number of conventions. However I believe these issues are solely ‘bizarre’ or ‘excessive’ to the individuals who don’t do these types of issues. I believe for people who find themselves followers of specific artists would get it. I believe individuals who love Amanda Tapping would get it too. These are issues that convey us pleasure and if we are able to make them attainable, why would we deny ourselves that pleasure?

BETWEEN THE 2nd AND eighth APRIL, I WASN’T ABLE TO ACCESS STARGATE DUE TO BEING AWAY IN THE US SO I DID GET SOMEWHAT BEHIND IN THE WATCHALONG. 

ninth April:

• Flesh and Blood (10.01) – Following on from the massive area battle in ‘Camelot’ (9.20), the entire ships are depleted and Sam is stranded in area with dwindling life assist. On the Ori ship, Vala has her child, Adria, who grows at an alarming charge with a purpose to lead the Ori. Everybody manages to get again to the Earth ship safely however they’re confronted as soon as once more – as they have been initially of the present – with a far superior enemy that they shouldn’t have the ability to beat. However they received the warfare towards the Goa’uld. It’s not not possible; there’s hope. However they should reevaluate, particularly with Adria within the combine. They handle to pack quite a lot of story into a comparatively stationary episode and it appears like a turning level within the Ori storyline.

PROMPT: Vala’s daughter, Adria, grows up so shortly on this episode. Though it is a sci-fi story, the truth is that point is fleeting for all of us. Who do you would like you would decelerate time with and spend extra high quality time with? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I don’t assume there’s anybody I do know that I wouldn’t need to decelerate time to have extra time with them. However my expertise of time over the previous few years has been very unusual: the world feels prefer it’s shifting so quick however I’m shifting so slowly. It makes life really feel very complicated and hectic and overwhelming. I consistently really feel unanchored and on the mercy of every part occurring round me and that’s a extremely arduous approach to stay. I’ll abruptly realise that I haven’t seen one buddy or one other in months or {that a} deadline’s arising and it simply makes preserving monitor of my life very troublesome and really hectic. I’d give something for all times to be even rather less hectic.

• Upgrades (4.03) – The Tok’ra arrive with armbands that they need to check on SG-1 (aside from Teal’c, whose symbiote would reject it), rising their energy, velocity, and expertise. The consequences of the armbands – and their enhanced talents – get them into all types of hassle (together with breaking out of the bottom for steak and getting themselves right into a bar struggle, which they’re all so humorous and cocky about). When Hammond calls an finish to the experiment, they discover that they will’t take away the armbands and the ensuing blood assessments present that they’re all going into a number of organ failure. However regardless of that, they escape and undergo the gate to destroy a Goa’uld mothership, which was what the Tok’ra have been hoping for all alongside. As they escape, the armbands begin to fall off, leaving Sam trapped on the ship, behind its forcefields. Luckily, explosions across the ship convey the barrier down and so they escape again to Earth with Teal’c’s assist, who was authorised to go. They’re anticipating to be courtmartialed however Hammond decides to put in writing off their subordination on account of ‘alien affect.’

PROMPT: In Upgrades, the staff get stronger and quicker however that additionally results in irresponsible selections. When have you ever made overconfident and impulsive selections and what classes did you be taught? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’m the other of impulsive. And overconfident. I believe I can in all probability depend on one hand the variety of occasions I’ve achieved one thing spontaneous and/or reckless. I believe it’s in all probability my autistic-need-to-follow-the-rules factor. Having stated that, I’ve gotten as much as some hijinks whereas away in Nashville (not significantly wild however nonetheless fairly large for me). The anxiousness and stress that makes me really feel so tightly wound simply lessens a little bit and I discover myself much less proof against going with the movement. I’ve spontaneously gone to exhibits, modified my plans, socialised with individuals I don’t know, grabbed alternatives that often really feel to scary. It’s very unusual.

• Thor’s Chariot (2.06) – Whereas I don’t love the much less technologically superior planet storylines, I do have a comfortable spot for Cimmeria and their relationship with the Asguard. It’s additionally cool to see SG-1 confronted with attempting to repair a mistake that they made of their inexperience; there are such a lot of unknowns when exploring the universe so it’s stunning that there weren’t extra errors made and injury achieved.

PROMPT: Thor reveals his true self because the gray aliens we’re so accustomed to. Has there been a time if you found one thing new and all of it simply clicked in collectively? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

Discovering that I’m autistic actually modified my life as a result of abruptly so a lot of my experiences made sense and that occurred repeatedly as I used to be recognized with comorbid circumstances that defined an increasing number of of the issues that had been making my life troublesome. After all, quite a lot of these circumstances nonetheless make my life troublesome however a minimum of I do know why. After I didn’t know, I simply felt so misplaced however as I’ve gained an increasing number of data about all of those points, the much less misplaced I’ve felt, a minimum of with reference to my psychological well being, my bodily well being, and my incapacity.

tenth April: 

• Emancipation (1.04) – I’ve at all times had a comfortable spot for this episode as a result of it’s the primary time we get to see how powerful Sam is however the episode itself is a racist, sexist, narrative mess: a white girl is the one one who can save the oppressed girls of color, the white girl is taken into account extra lovely and beneficial for being white and blonde when it’s extra probably that she would’ve been thought of bizarre; the white girl is ready to undo 1000’s of years of oppression in two days, which is widely known when simply days in the past it was extraordinarily necessary to their tradition and every part is completely high-quality. It’s offensive and simply deeply unrealistic. It’s very previous and so they had good intentions nevertheless it simply doesn’t work. And never solely that, it’s all handled very evenly and flippantly when what was truly occurring (Sam being kidnapped and at risk of rape, the common beating of the ladies, the promoting of girls for political achieve, and so forth) was actually darkish – Teal’c being Jaffa (and Apophis’ First Prime) typically bought them in deep trouble and put his life at risk, which they at all times took very severely however that was very the case with Sam… Anyway. It was attending to see Sam be superior for the primary time that bought me into it and I believe that what I’ve favored about it’s the potential it had, somewhat than the truth of it. There was a very good story in there: sooner or later they’d have probably gated to a deeply misogynistic, patriarchal society that put Sam’s life at risk and that might’ve been a extremely attention-grabbing story to discover.

PROMPT: The best episode in Stargate historical past… April Idiot’s! However severely, this episode offers instantly with inequality and sadly that also exists immediately. How do you cope with inequality with others that stay in ‘utterly alternative ways?’ Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’m aware of how a lot I don’t find out about individuals and so I at all times attempt my finest to remain open and un-judgemental. There’s a lot to study individuals, within the wider teams they belong to and as people. I’m typically misunderstood as a result of I’m autistic, due to psychological well being points and my bodily well being points, and I understand how terrible it feels to have individuals make assumptions and judgements with out even attempting to know me. I by no means need to be somebody who does that to individuals. After all, all of us have our internalised points that we have to work by however I’m doing my finest and I believe that that’s all we are able to do as people.

• Redemption: Half 1 (6.01) – The individuals drafted in to exchange Daniel aren’t lasting very lengthy; Jack hasn’t been proud of any of them. Jonas remains to be base-bound however, when SG-1 go to Nevada to see the newly completed X-302, he’s invited alongside as his contributions of Naquadria have made it attainable. However when information reaches them that Teal’c’s spouse is sick, they head to Chulak solely to find that she has already died. Rya’c is livid with Teal’c for every part he’s achieved, the results of which made them outcasts and certain contributed to Drey’auc’s dying. On Earth, Anubis is attacking the gate and SG-1, sans Teal’c who’s nonetheless on Chulak, attempt to cease him, attempt to contact the Asguard for assist. Sam’s truly scared that she will be able to’t repair it, even when she had extra time.
• Redemption: Half 2 (6.02) – Sam is bound that McKay’s plan will fail and make issues worse after which, when it does, she’s electrocuted and loses consciousness. In the meantime, Teal’c, Bra’tac, and Rya’c attempt to disable Anubis’ weapon from their facet of the gate. When Sam is again on her ft, it’s a remark from Jonas that evokes her to get the gate into area utilizing the X-302 in order that, when it explodes, no injury might be achieved to the Earth, although it leaves them and not using a Stargate. Jack simply manages to get it into hyperspace, parachuting out simply in time, and Teal’c is ready to fly again to Earth, Rya’c having destroyed the gadget. The SGC negotiates the opposite Stargate from the Russians in trade for a Russian soldier on SG-1, at which level Jack broadcasts that he’s already recruited Jonas.

PROMPT: Teal’c and Rya’c cope with a troublesome father-son relationship. How is your relationship together with your father (or different member of the family)? Something you would like they might perceive extra about you? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I used to be solely 13 when my Dad died so we by no means actually had the chance to have something apart from a very good relationship. We bought on rather well however I used to be nonetheless a child – a really un-rebellious, properly behaved child – and I didn’t stay with him so we by no means actually had the possibility to have a foul relationship. I wish to assume that that might’ve stayed the established order – a very good relationship – usually. I do surprise how he would’ve reacted to my being autistic although, whether or not it could’ve been one thing he accepted immediately or whether or not he would’ve struggled with it like some individuals have.

• Homecoming (7.02) – Having captured Jonas and realized of the Naquadria, Anubis assaults Kelowna, Jonas’ residence, with a purpose to take it for himself. The SGC agree to assist Kelowna however solely in cooperation with the 2 different states on the planet however even with their international ceasefire after Kelowna used their Naquadria bomb, it’s removed from a straightforward alliance. Daniel manages to avoid wasting Jonas, Anubis is defeated for the second, and with Jonas going residence to assist with the peace delegations on his planet, Daniel rejoins SG-1.

PROMPT: In Homecoming, the oldest of the System Lords, Lord Yu, is starting to endure from dementia and we all know it’s not straightforward on First Prime Oshu. We all know a lot of you might be caring on your ageing mother and father and grandparents. We’d love to listen to a beautiful story about them. Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

This example doesn’t actually apply to me however my Mum’s Mum died in September 2021 on the age of eighty-three. It was actually arduous on my Mum however I’m unsure I’ve actually handled it: I used to be too busy simply attempting to maintain it collectively. However one of many issues I liked about her was, regardless of not essentially understanding my being autistic or my sibling’s exploration of gender and self expression, she at all times tried to know and he or she at all times supported us. She wasn’t scared by not figuring out; she was at all times open and empathetic in her strategy to studying extra. I very a lot admired that about her and hope that I can reply to the world in an analogous method. She was additionally a tremendous piano participant.

thirteenth April:

• Shades of Gray (3.18) – I don’t love this episode due to the battle between the characters. Sam, Daniel, and Teal’c (him maybe most of all) are so confused and damage by the best way he’s appearing and he goes for the jugular each time. After which he’s retiring off world and leaving them behind. I do know he’s doing it for the higher good however I sort of hate the implication that the remainder of the staff couldn’t be trusted to a minimum of know what was occurring; the reasons of their reactions wanted to be plausible and the Asguard solely wanting Jack concerned really feel sort of bullshit, like a writing work round somewhat than genuine selections for the story. Sure, he pulls off the mission, the rogue unit are apprehended, and belief is restored with the opposite alien races. Nevertheless it nonetheless feels a bit… icky. And I believe the staff forgive him a bit too shortly. It’s in all probability good that they don’t let it fester and so they’re in all probability extra glad to have him again than they’re indignant and damage by the top of the episode nevertheless it does really feel a bit too straightforward.

PROMPT: Jack betrays Sam and Daniel all through this episode. First, by stealing Tollan know-how, and later studying that he’s been mendacity to Sam, Daniel, and Teal’c as a result of insistence by the Asgard. Do the ends justify the means? Is it okay to lie for the higher good? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

Whereas I believe that there are in all probability some lies which can be acceptable within the grand scheme of issues, I don’t assume this one was. As I stated, I believe it was shitty to place the staff by that simply because the Asguard requested – SG-1 might have been trusted – and I believe they forgave him far too simply. I’d’ve been actually damage. I believe, usually, it’s at all times higher to be trustworthy, though typically it is likely to be kinder to decide on the second somewhat than simply blurting one thing out. However honesty has at all times been actually necessary to me.

• Prometheus Unbound (8.12) – Daniel, Common Hammond, and the crew of Prometheus are headed to Atlantic when Vala cons her method on board, dressed as an excellent soldier. Whereas the remainder of the crew are attempting to outlive of Vala’s broken ship, Vala tries to control Daniel into serving to her. Their banter is so humorous, proper from the start. Vala is mendacity about having a very good trigger, in fact (and we don’t even know her but). They very practically get killed by Goa’uld gliders however Daniel and the crew are finally reunited, with Vala as their prisoner however then, in fact, she escapes.

PROMPT: Ronan vs Teal’c? Nah? Rush vs Younger? Nope. The best struggle in Stargate historical past is between Daniel and Vala. What’s the most effective ever struggle, break up, and make up you’ve ever had together with your higher half? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

Eh, unconvinced that that’s the best struggle. It is likely to be the funniest struggle although. However no matter. Again to the immediate. I can’t think about seeing a struggle as a very good factor so I don’t assume I can reply to this immediate significantly properly. I’ve solely ever had petty spats that finally everybody bought over or devastating conflicts that in the end ended the connection. However severely – severely – I can’t comprehend taking a look at a struggle of that scale (not to mention a couple of) and the phrase ‘finest’ ever coming into my thoughts.

• Level of View (3.06) – An alternate universe Sam and Kawalsky come by the mirror. Of their world, the SGC and planet Earth have been taken over by the Goa’uld and their Jack, who was Sam’s husband, had been killed. They’re asking for assist nevertheless it’s not lengthy earlier than the opposite Sam is affected by Entropic Cascade Failure, a consequence of being in the identical actuality as that actuality’s model of her. The Sams work on a plan to get Kawalsky and Sam again to their actuality and make contact with the Asguard however the different Sam may be very snarky and defensive: she’s combating the truth that our Sam saved the planet and he or she couldn’t, in addition to seeing Jack whereas figuring out that her Jack is gone (it’s very unusual to see any model of Sam getting emotional over Jack this early within the present). Their marriage ceremony photograph may be very cute and I can’t assist questioning if it was photoshopped or whether or not they truly dressed as much as take it. The Sams handle to give you an answer, which they handle to drag off, though there’s some apparent emotional confusion when the opposite Sam kisses our Jack goodbye. Our Sam is feeling one thing about it, though I’m unsure she is aware of what.

PROMPT: Dr. Carter or  Main Carter, good Teal’c or dangerous Teal’c. Alive O’Neill or lifeless O’Neill. What are you want in an alternate actuality? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I believe the obvious alternate actuality model of me could be one the place I’m not autistic. It’s one thing I’ve puzzled about quite a bit, what my life could be like. Within the virtually ten years since I used to be recognized, I haven’t typically wished to not be autistic however over the previous few years – within the worst depressive episode of my life – I’ve had intervals of hating it and of ruminating over what it could be wish to have been neurotypical. I can’t assist pondering that life would’ve been simpler, although I do know I’d’ve simply had totally different issues.

fifteenth April:

• Moebius: Half 1 (8.19) – After Catherine Langford’s dying, Daniel inherits her whole assortment and discovers a reference to a ZPM in Historical Egypt. Within the briefing, Daniel tries to persuade Jack to allow them to return in time to Historical Egypt and steal the ZPM that Ra by no means knew he had (Jack is so not loving being the final and having to hearken to the entire scientists however the best way his hand squishes over Sam’s when he takes the file from her… Not very skilled however deeply lovable of them). Jack can get them again with the puddle jumper and the unique 4 of SG-1 head again to 3000 BC. They should hold a low profile however Jack finds it very arduous to not step in and assist (curiously the CGI of the Jaffa armour has gotten so significantly better for the reason that present started). They handle to steal the ZPM however once they get again to the puddle jumper, they uncover that sand has blown over it and made its place very apparent – the picture of the sand blown over the invisible puddle jumper is deeply hilarious. Now that it has been found by Jaffa, they will’t get better it and get residence with out inflicting vital change. The one possibility left is to stay quietly and mix in in order that they don’t change the long run. However the future has been modified: Daniel is instructing English as a international language and Sam is an excellent nerd, having her theories stolen by her boss and each of them leap on the probability to go to the SGC. Jack retired at colonel and now owns a ship however received’t come again to the SGC; he could also be much more jaded than our unique Jack. It’s a bit over comical for me, with an excessive amount of cringe comedy, however I do recognize how dorky they’re, how they make enjoyable of the ‘reproductive organs line,’ and so forth. The unique staff made a video with Daniel’s camcorder, sealed it up, and the SGC finally discovered it. The dorky variations of them are seeing the tremendous cool variations of them, which may be very entertaining. Sam and Daniel attempt to persuade Jack to go to Chulak with them however he nonetheless refuses. The SGC additionally recovered the puddle jumper and McKay is in control of figuring it out, dismissing Sam’s concepts utterly. The episode ends with Sam and Daniel studying that they received’t be occurring the mission however Jack, who’s returned, might be.

PROMPT: Again to again alternate actuality episodes! Okay, you possibly can change one factor in your previous that might change the trajectory of your life immediately. What would that be? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’ve already rambled about autistic me vs. allistic me and whereas it could’ve completely modified the trajectory of my life, I don’t actually need to go over that once more; there are many difficult layers of thought and emotion that go into questioning whether or not or not you’d change being autistic as a result of it could be to alter one thing so elementary to who you might be. So one thing else I’d change? I’d change my Dad dying in 2008. That was the primary large T trauma of my life and I’d do something to have him again in my life.To have had him current for the entire large and small moments of my life… that might’ve modified every part.

• Moebius: Half 2 (8.20) – All of them undergo to Chulak and oh my god, Sam and Daniel are so unbelievably dorky; Daniel moaning about parking the puddle jumper so removed from the settlement is so humorous. At the very least Jack vaguely is aware of what he’s doing, having been within the Air Drive earlier than. Even so, they’re captured just about immediately and Daniel is tortured for info. After which, a lot to their shock, Teal’c provides them again their gear and so they escape. However earlier than they will get very far, Teal’c reappears and shoots Daniel, explaining that he’d been implanted with a Goa’uld. With simply Jack, Sam, and Teal’c left, they return in time to seek out the unique staff, solely to find that solely Daniel survived the riot that they had joined (because it was already historic reality). Again within the puddle jumper, Jack and Sam attempt to determine the way it works and so they’re each simply so humorous and awkward (I bear in mind Amanda Tapping saying, within the audio commentary possibly, that she was pregnant on the time – it was nonetheless early so they might cover it with the dorky outfits – and her mind was so fuzzy that she might barely bear in mind her strains, which in some way simply makes this episode funnier). They find yourself kissing, in fact, even because the riot outdoors succeeds. Again within the current, they assume that every part should’ve labored out, that they didn’t do something that modified historical past. They usually lastly go fishing! Clearly for us, it’s the second time for us nevertheless it’s the primary time for them… besides now there are fish in Jack’s pond and in traditional Jack O’Neill type, he quotes The Simpsons: “Shut sufficient.”

PROMPT: Yesterday, you shared one thing you’ll change however that is such an enormous subject. What’s one thing else you’d like to alter? A romance, a fling, a relationship, or one thing else? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I discover this fairly a tough query as a result of many of the dangerous issues which have occurred to me have in the end result in good issues. However now that I give it some thought, I’d change coming off my antidepressants to attempt ADHD medicine: that was in all probability the more serious determination of my life as a result of it triggered a large depressive episode that’s now been occurring for nearly three years. So I’d undo that. I used to be so excited for every part forward of me after commencement and that medicine change (and my response to it) stole it from me.

• Meridian (5.21) – I discover this episode so troublesome, borderline insufferable, to observe (I believe I’ve watched it most thrice, which is absurd in comparison with what number of occasions I’ve watched different episodes of this present). Daniel is uncovered to a deadly dose of radiation off-world when he tries to cease a malfunctioning weapons check and over the remainder of the episode, we watch Daniel deteriorate, the others attempt to say their goodbyes, and Jonas desert his planet after seeing the best way they’d handled Daniel and the glee on their faces once they realised how highly effective the weapon was. In the meantime, Oma Desala encourages Daniel to ascend, though she doesn’t make it significantly clear how one truly ascends. Speaking with Oma, Daniel reveals that he feels his life has been a failure, that he hasn’t modified as a lot as he might have (I can’t assist feeling that that is sort of smug, and self-pitying to a sure diploma – he’s achieved greater than most traditional individuals ever even have the possibility to do and it’s nonetheless not sufficient for him?). Jacob arrives and tries to heal Daniel however Daniel brings Jack into his pre-ascension area and tells him that he doesn’t need to be healed. Jack conveys Daniel’s message and Jacob stops, which permits Daniel to ascend.

PROMPT: We sadly say goodbye (thank goodness quickly) to Daniel on this iconic episode. It’s filled with grief, loss, and we replicate on the query of why can we wait to inform individuals about how we actually really feel. Let’s be taught from that lesson. Ship a textual content, drop a word, or give a name to somebody you care about. Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I at all times had a way of this, whilst a toddler. However I believe it actually burrowed underneath my pores and skin after my Dad died after I was 13. And for some time, it was a constructive, reassuring factor however now it’s a relentless anxiousness, that one thing will occur if I don’t inform somebody I like them once we half methods. It’s a depressing, hectic approach to exist.

• Exodus (4.22) – SG-1 and the Tok’ra confront Tanith about being a double brokers however he manages to flee. With Apophis as soon as once more an imminent menace and coming for them, Sam and Jacob need to blow up a solar, which might take out your entire (barren) photo voltaic system and Apophis’ fleet when it arrives. However simply as they set the plan in movement, Tanith assaults their ship and so they lose energy. Jack and Teal’c chase after him in one of many gliders and when Tanith lands on the planet once more, Teal’c crashes the glider in an try to kill him (I really feel like Teal’c was taking the Jaffa revenge factor method too far – it’s one factor to danger his personal life nevertheless it’s completely one other to danger Jack’s life so cavalierly). Sam manages to repair the ship (I nonetheless discover the ‘crystal know-how’ fairly ridiculous) simply as Apophis arrives however Teal’c has been shot by Apophis’ Jaffa and now he and Tanith are on Apophis’ ship. Sam and Jacob are capable of rescue Jack however the solar is about to blow up and so they solely escape by the pores and skin of their enamel with Teal’c’s destiny unknown. The hyperdrive strands them tons of of years from Earth with each Apophis’ ship and one other large, unknown ship.

PROMPT: Sam and her father, Jacob, give you a plan to explode a solar. There are extremely excessive stakes, excessive stress, and the stress that comes with that. When there are nice expectations positioned in your shoulders, how do you cope with the stress? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’d wish to say I’m good underneath stress – and underneath sure types of stress, I do deal with myself fairly properly – however, usually, excessive stress shouldn’t be good for me. I imply, I’ve been on this depressive episode for a extremely very long time so I’m unsure, if that have been to alter, issues could be totally different. I’d wish to assume so. I’d wish to assume I’m not, usually, a whole mess.

• Enemies (5.01) – The large ship saves them simply in time and appears to depart Apophis’ ship empty. Exploring the ship, they uncover that it’s infested with replicators. Again on their ship, they discover Teal’c alive however he’s introduced Apophis and his Jaffa with him, having been brainwashed into believing that he’s nonetheless First Prime and that he was solely ever been pretending to be their ally. SG-1 are locked in a cell however the replicators have began to invade the ship and after some time, the cell door opens as a result of injury they’re inflicting. They handle to hijack a cargo ship, kidnap Teal’c, and escape the ship earlier than Apophis is overwhelmed by the replicators.

PROMPT: Teal’c is brainwashed and should by no means be the identical once more. How do you cope with poisoned friendships? How a lot time, assist, and beauty do you give to somebody you’re so near? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’m unsure I’d ever describe any of my friendships as having been ‘poisoned,’ however I’ve had different, much less straightforward to label relationships which have abruptly turned very poisonous. They – there have been two apparent ones – occurred a decade aside and, the primary time, I used to be so damage that it took me a very long time to get better; there was no forgiveness concerned. However the second time, I gave the opposite individual a number of alternatives to elucidate themselves and so they by no means might; they really solely made issues worse. After that, there was no fixing the connection so I walked away and there’s been no contact since. I believe there are some issues which can be simply unforgivable, though I don’t assume that essentially means you must go on being weighed down by them.

• Abyss (6.06) – Manipulated by his Tok’ra symbiote, Jack is caputured by Ba’al’s Jaffa after which imprisoned and tortured by Ba’al. Ascended Daniel visits him to ‘console him’ however he maintains that he can’t assist; he can however he’s not allowed to (not a very useful go to then). I actually get Jack’s frustration; there are positively parallels to how my psychological well being impacts me in comparison with how Ba’al tortures Jack. That has made it a more durable watch than it was once. However then the SGC connect the bottom, permitting him to flee and so they all handle to get again to Earth. I can’t assist however want he’d gotten to see extra of the after: it was a deeply traumatic expertise so he undoubtedly had PTSD and withdrawal from the sarcophagus. I do know that the present can’t spend time exmaing the entire trauma they undergo (particularly contemplating HOW MUCH trauma they undergo) nevertheless it does frustrate me that it’s virtually very revisited.

PROMPT: Jack is being tortured and killed over and over by Ba’al. His previous buddy, Daniel, seems to supply consolation and steerage. In occasions of utmost stress, who do you flip to, manifest, or think about to supply phrases of consolation and steerage to assist. Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I relate to Jack quite a bit on this episode. My psychological well being has been so dangerous during the last couple of years that getting up every day typically feels not possible. I had my therapist however after she traumatised me initially of the 12 months, I walked away. So now I don’t actually have anybody to speak to, not that l’ve ever heard any recommendation that’s truly helped. Not with issues being as dangerous as they’re. The whole lot sounds clichéd or cringy and simply doesn’t get remotely near what I really feel. I get Jack’s frustration with Daniel, that he might truly assist however wouldn’t.

• Throughout the Serpent’s Grasp (1.22) – The SGC is closing down however SG-1 need to undergo the gate to the tackle that Daniel introduced again from the alternate actuality, to cease the Goa’uld from attacking like they did there. They handle to get by earlier than anybody can cease them and discover themselves on a ship; the gate tackle for Earth now not works and so they’re caught there. Klorel instructions the ship – with Apophis on a second ship – however Jack and Teal’c handle to kidnap him briefly and speak to Skaara. However then they’re captured themselves and it’s left to Sam and Daniel – the science twins – to rescue them. However when Klorel tries to kill Daniel, Jack is compelled to shoot him and kill each Klorel and Skaara, though luckily there’s a sarcophagus on the ship so it isn’t everlasting. The ship pulls up and so they uncover that they’re hovering over Earth. It’s an important cliffhanger for the primary sequence.

PROMPT: SG-1 must violate orders to avoid wasting Earth from the slaughtering by the hands of Apophis. Have you ever ever achieved one thing towards somebody’s needs since you knew it was for the most effective? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I don’t assume I’ve ever needed to, luckily, however I do know what it’s wish to really feel compelled to do what you realize is the appropriate factor, to really feel like the appropriate factor is so apparent however nobody else appears to see it or appears prepared to prioritise it.

• Small Victories (4.01) – They thought they’d destroyed the replicators once they crashed the infested Asguard ship into the ocean however clearly a minimum of one survived. They’d misplaced the Stargate of their escape however with the Antarctica gate arrange, they’re heading out on missions once more. Sam goes with the Asguard, who’ve appeared asking for assist, and Jack and Teal’c sort out the replicator infested submarine. Sam manages to destroy the replicators threatening the Asguard after which beam Jack and Teal’c out of the submarine simply earlier than it’s destroyed by a torpedo.

PROMPT: “Wait a minute, you’re truly saying you want somebody dumber than you might be?” Pondering laterally and creatively… how do you develop your expertise in pondering outdoors the field? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I believe an enormous a part of my ‘artistic’ drawback fixing is my autistic mind. Very often, I see issues in a different way to others and should work backwards to determine why they see it the best way they do. Often I’ve made some large leaps which can be bizarre to them so I’ve had quite a lot of unusual seems after I counsel issues, simply because my rationalization didn’t embody issues that I’d thought have been apparent. Bringing these totally different plans collectively typically leads to a good answer that fits everybody.

seventeenth April:

• Revelations (5.22) – The staff are nonetheless reeling after Daniel’s dying/ascension. Sam is basically combating dropping him, in addition to with the anomaly of all of it; Jack is again to enterprise, though we are able to see that he’s feeling it too; and Teal’c is someplace within the center. Then the staff uncover that Thor has been killed, which additionally signifies that the protected planets are now not protected. However as soon as within the Asguard lab that they’ve been directed to, they be taught that Thor remains to be alive however has been captured by Osiris. SG-1 handle to rescue Thor and get him again to the Asguard with the hope that they may also help him. After which, as they’re leaving, an not possible breeze brushes previous them, which Jack clearly thinks is a message from Daniel.

PROMPT: After having simply misplaced Daniel within the earlier episode, the season finale ends with Sam, Teal’c, and Jack grabbing a chew to eat. As they’re about to depart, they really feel a small breeze, presumably an ascended Daniel. How do you progress on after dropping an expensive buddy? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

This can be a actually large query, one which I might write a complete weblog publish about. I don’t assume that dropping somebody you like is one thing you by no means actually recover from; it simply turns into part of you, a component that you find yourself probably not figuring out how you can stay with it. For me, it’s necessary to maintain one thing about them – music they favored, their favorite e book, a bit of their jewelry – shut. It’s a reminder of them, a private memorial.

• Camelot (9.20) – Trying to find Merlin’s gadget, SG-1 discover themselves in a village the place Cam has to struggle yet one more hologram knight, though it’s in the end a lady from the village stops it. The staff go to cease the supergate from activating however the Ori have already began dialling in, attacking as quickly as they arrive by. In the meantime, Teal’c has been taken prisoner by the Lucian Alliance however he manages to persuade them to affix the struggle and it’s a very superior area battle (think about what it should’ve been like for Sam watching all of it, stranded out in area in simply her area go well with). Because the episode ends, Vala goes into labour.

PROMPT: Do you ever really feel such as you’re cursed? There’s no logic anybody can say, no reasoning anybody may give you to interrupt you out of your spell. What ‘curses’ do you carry? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

When my anxiousness actually begins to get the most effective of me, I do really feel cursed – although I do know that there’s no such factor. I simply really feel just like the universe is telling me that I’m not allowed to be comfortable, that no good factor can occur and not using a dangerous factor coming proper on its heels.

• The Shroud (10.14) – SG-1 witness a Prior arrive on a planet and uncover that it’s Daniel, who has clearly been became a Prior by Adria since he was captured. They beam him up onto the ship and he abruptly appears to be Daniel, though he nonetheless has Merlin’s recollections downloaded into his thoughts. SG-1 are beginning to consider him however when the IOA see him as a menace and determine to freeze him in Antarctica, he proves simply highly effective he’s and breaks out of his restraints. He beams the crew again onto Earth and beams Jack aboard, hijacking the ship and flying it out to the supergate. He seems to be a Prior once more when Adria and a few of her troopers flip up however he turns towards her and SG-1 ship the weapon by the supergate to the Ori galaxy. Daniel is Daniel once more. They don’t know if it labored and destroyed the Ori however even when it did, they nonetheless have 1000’s and 1000’s of followers. The supergate prompts and ship after after ship comes by.

PROMPT: Evil Daniel Jackson… How do you assist a buddy who’s struggling, has turned poisonous, or unexpectedly became any person utterly totally different? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I believe there’s solely a lot you are able to do. If a buddy doesn’t recognise the change or doesn’t consider that the connection has turn into poisonous, you’re solely going to go spherical and spherical in circles. That’s been my expertise, a minimum of. Having stated that, I do battle to let individuals go and I grieve the lack of what was actually arduous. I give every part to my friendships, typically to my detriment, particularly once they’re struggling but when they don’t need assist or received’t settle for assist, all you are able to do is be there till they’re prepared.

• The Quest: Half 1 (10.10) – Vala’s dream leads them to a planet the place Merlin’s weapon is presumably hidden however once they arrive, they uncover that Ba’al has already been there. They’re warned that nobody who’s looked for it, for the Sangraal, has returned. Following the map, the discover a crowd of frozen individuals and Sam determines that there’s a temporal distortion with just one method by and they also should comply with her gadget precisely. However when the sphere interferes with it, they’re caught and solely escape when Sam makes use of pebbles to gauge how far they will go in any route. They find yourself inadvertently rescuing Ba’al solely to run into Adria who needs to make use of them to get the Sangraal. They’ve to finish a number of duties, from fixing riddles to saving a toddler. Daniel realises that Adria can’t use her powers however he can’t decide up the Sangraal both: when he tries, a dragon is launched.

PROMPT: SG-1 continues on their seek for the Sangraal, a dangerous quest. What’s a trial that you simply’ve gone by that was so extremely arduous? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

Making an attempt to get assist for my psychological well being, my bodily well being, and my difficulties as an autistic individual is an ongoing trial. I’ve discovered so few medical professionals who’re even prepared to assist after which they’re typically solely out there for a restricted time, regardless of a lot of my well being issues being long run, persistent circumstances. Most not too long ago I’ve been attempting to get assist for my melancholy and I’ve needed to repeatedly flip myself inside out and share my worst, most painful emotions solely to have them flip me away. How is it that attempting to get assist is barely inflicting extra injury? Ten years in, I’ve a lot medical trauma that I can barely stroll right into a medical or therapeutic scenario with out having a meltdown or a panic assault. And it’s not going to alter anytime quickly with the federal government and the NHS the best way they’re.

• The Quest: Half 2 (10.11) – Daniel stops the dragon with title magic however they nonetheless can’t contact the Sangraal. Simply as they’re giving up, all of them however Adria are teleported into one other chamber the place Merlin has been preserved. He wakes up and begins constructing one thing because the chamber appears to maneuver from planet to planet. Weak from his superior age, Merlin dies and Daniel uploads his recollections into his personal mind with a purpose to hold constructing the gadget. However Adria is following them, every time monitoring them extra shortly, and when she does meet up with them, it’s solely Daniel utilizing Merlin’s powers that permits SG-1 to flee by the gate. However he isn’t capable of comply with them and Adria takes him together with her.

PROMPT: Let’s focus on self value. How have you ever prevented emotions of inferiority? How do you cope with know-it-alls? How a lot does it get to you and the way do you overcome it? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’m positively not an skilled on this subject. I do not need good self-worth and I don’t actually know how you can change that. I can’t actually think about myself any totally different than the best way I’m at the moment, can’t actually think about myself with excessive self worth.

• Unnatural Choice (6.12) – Regardless of being such a complicated race, the Asguard at all times appear to be in hassle and in want of assist from Earth. They set a entice for the replicator nevertheless it didn’t work and now they want SG-1 to determine why it failed and how you can repair it. The replicators have reversed the time dilation area they have been trapped in and so time is shifting quicker for them, giving them extra time to copy. When SG-1 goes in, they discover individuals there, solely to find that they’re, in actual fact, human type replicators. Taking pictures them does nothing and so they can drive their fingers into the heads of human to study their experiences and feelings and so on: for instance, the one which selected Jack confirmed him Charlie’s dying over and over. They plan to explode the ship however Sam runs into the one of many human type replicators, Fifth, earlier than they will. He informs them that they’ve been invited for dinner however they simply need to go into their minds over and over. Fifth doesn’t need to – there’s one thing totally different about him, extra human, about him – however First makes him. Sam lets him and he takes her to his thoughts to speak, which permits her to create a bond with him and persuade him to assist them escape in trade for taking him with them them. By the point she wakes up, he’s already mounted the time dilation gadget. They want him to provide them a head begin and Jack orders Sam to set it for 5 minutes whereas signalling three in order that Fifth might be left behind whereas they escape, which she reluctantly does. Fifth is heartbroken when he realises, simply earlier than the gadget prompts, and each Jonas and Sam really feel responsible, although Jack is bound it was the appropriate factor to do.

PROMPT: SG-1 betray Fifth and places the Replicators right into a time dilation bubble. How do you cope with guilt? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’m horrible with guilt; I discover it simply takes over and it’s all I can take into consideration. I obsess over it and the way I could make it higher till I’ve made it higher. It’s not significantly wholesome, I do know, as a result of you possibly can’t at all times sort things however I’m engaged on it (though I’ve greater issues to work on at this second in time).

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• There However For The Grace Of God (1.20) – After touching an odd mirror, Daniel results in one other actuality the place Earth is underneath assault from the Goa’uld. Catherine is in control of the SGC, Jack is a Common and engaged to Sam who by no means joined the army (I like that they’re collectively in principally each actuality), and Hammond is a Colonel. Daniel is barely capable of persuade them of the reality when he exhibits them his camcorder with the footage he’d taken on the mission earlier than stepping by the mirror. Consequently they share a trasmission they’d recieved, which Daniel is ready to translate as a gate tackle the place the assault has presumably come from. A Goa’uld ship lands on prime of the mountain and Daniel convinces Jack to attempt to speak Teal’c onto their facet, utilizing the camcorder footage. However the bomb that the SGC despatched by the gate to Chulak killed his entire household and he kills Jack in revenge. Sam and Catherine each sacrifice their lives to get Daniel by the gate in order that he can return to his personal actuality and save his world.

PROMPT: Daniel goes by the Quantum Mirror right into a world related, however totally different. In the event you have been transported to a different dimension, what’s one factor in your life now, you hope would keep the identical? What’s one factor you would like could be totally different? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’d need my household to be the identical: I wouldn’t give them up for something. As for what I’d hope would change, I believe I’d want for extra assist in making music. I’m assuming that these modifications are solely in my life as a result of then my solutions could be very totally different: there are such a lot of modifications I’d make globally and nationally. The world is a catastrophe zone proper now (and has been for too lengthy).

• The Serpent’s Lair (2.01) – The 2 ships are hovering over Earth and though Earth assaults, the shields shield them from any injury. SG-1 and Bra’tac give you a plan to explode the ships from the within after which should struggle their approach to the gliders. Daniel will get shot however since all of them assume they’re going to die anyway, he convinces them to maintain going with out him. However he manages to get himself into the sarcophagus and use the gate to flee. The remainder of SG-1 and Bra’tac count on to die within the gliders however then some sort of Earth vessel or station seems to rescue them. They’re greeted again on the SGC to nice applause and so they’re reunited with Daniel, which may be very lovable.

PROMPT: For Apophis and Klorel, issues don’t go to plan and so they should reluctantly retreat. When have you learnt it’s a time to retreat? How have you learnt if it’s a very good time to stop one thing? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I believe figuring out when to stop is a really private factor however, for me, I do know it’s time to stroll away from one thing when it’s now not serving me, when it’s draining extra from me than it’s refilling. That’s the one method I can describe it. There are additionally events when my autistic mind simply will get too overwhelmed and I’ve to take away among the calls for on me to ensure that me to simply hold functioning. I typically don’t be ok with doing it however I’m studying to just accept it, to a sure diploma a minimum of.

• A Matter of Time (2.16) – I like this episode: it’s so cool and I like how they play with the ideas of area and physics. It begins with such a splendidly humorous scene, with Jack whispering to Sam about not understanding wormholes and why they’re named after worms. Sam is so affected person whereas explaining it to him and their face appearing is simply hilarious. However from then on, the temper utterly modifications once they uncover that one of many SG groups has gated to a planet too near a black gap and are actually trapped there, dying in sluggish movement. The SGC discover that they will’t shut down the gate as a result of black gap’s gravity coming by the wormhole. When it begins affecting time, numerous members of the SGC depart for hours at a time, solely to return a couple of minutes later; this seems to be a bonus in that it provides Sam time to determine an answer. However the staff despatched to ‘rescue’ them is lead by a Colonel Cromwell, who we be taught deserted Jack earlier in his profession, leading to months of imprisonment and torture in Iraq; it’s not stunning that Jack is much from thrilled to see him. Sam comes up with the concept to make use of a cost to drive the wormhole to leap to a special gate – not in contrast to what occurred to Sam and Jack once they ended up in Antarctica – nevertheless it requires Jack and Cromwell to abseil all the way down to the gate, the place the pull of gravity is even stronger. Cromwell in the end falls to his dying however Jack manages to set off the cost, breaking the connection and saving the planet.

PROMPT: Jack can’t forgive Cromwell for leaving him behind, although Cromwell’s determination meant having the ability to save the staff. Jack’s incapability to forgive destroyed their friendship. How do you forgive a buddy who you are feeling left you behind? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I skilled this quite a bit after I was youthful, buddies abandoning me for different buddies and not using a phrase. However I don’t know if any of us are significantly good at friendships once we’re younger. I believe that, as I grew up and bought higher at navigating relationships, I might recognise when a friendship wasn’t serving every of us anymore and I believe that that makes it simpler to stroll away and to stroll away on good phrases.

I haven’t ever had a buddy damage me as badly as Cromwell damage Jack so I don’t assume my experiences are actually comparable. However having stated that, I don’t actually consider in forgiveness. I imply, I believe it’s attainable however I don’t consider it’s needed to maneuver on. You don’t owe them something after one thing like that and in the event you’re high-quality the best way you might be and don’t want to forgive them to maneuver ahead, then you possibly can transfer on on you’re personal. There are individuals in my life who I don’t assume deserve forgiveness and I don’t personally must forgive them to depart them behind. I don’t assume it’s a requirement, a minimum of not for everybody.

• 2010 (4.16) – So this episode takes place 9 years after the earlier episode, the entire season airing in 2001. It’s a brand new environment friendly world after Stargate SG-1 met a race referred to as the Aschen who they made an alliance with, who saved them from the Goa’uld, and who supplied superior know-how, drugs, and so forth. However all isn’t as fairly because it appears: Kinsey grew to become President, Jack is notably absent from the alliance anniversary celebrations (though he’s nonetheless alive), and Common Hammond died not way back. Sam and her husband Joe have been unable to get pregnant and though her Aschen physician advised her that nothing was fallacious, Janet’s evaluation is that she’s infertile and that her physician couldn’t have missed this. They sneak into the Aschen facility the place Sam works and Sam accesses their database, discovering that the delivery charge has dropped dramatically, that the Aschen are primarily sterilising Earth’s inhabitants. After they inform the remaining members of SG-1, they determine that they’ve to return in time and undo it so Sam goes to see Jack. There’s positively some painful historical past there (between the 2 of them and doubtless with Joe too given Sam and Jack’s lively non-relationship for thus lengthy) however she nonetheless asks. He says no however nonetheless exhibits up on the SGC the place they’d all deliberate to fulfill. The one factor that they don’t have however desperately want is a GDO and whereas the others are considerably skeptical, Sam is bound that Joe will get it for them. When she confronts him concerning the declining birthrate, he’s shocked however then says that it was by no means speculated to be so excessive. He knew about all of it alongside. Sam is horrified however he insists that it was a deal breaker for the Aschen when constructing the alliance however she’s nonetheless livid with him. The subsequent day Sam manages to foretell a flare, proving that it’s nonetheless attainable. however Joe says he’ll solely hand over the GDO is Sam isn’t concerned (the historical past between Jack, Sam, and Joe is much more apparent right here), which they reluctantly comply with with a purpose to make the plan occur. The gate is closely guarded, by Aschen and what appear to be heat-seeking lasers. As quickly as they head for the gate and folks begin working in the wrong way, Sam pushes Joe away and heads in anyway. Teal’c is killed by the lasers; Jack, regardless of heroic effort, doesn’t fairly meet the gate with the word to ship by; Daniel makes an attempt to get it by however is killed earlier than he can; and it’s Sam who lastly tosses it by, simply as she’s killed by the lasers. Again in 2001, the gate engages and since SG-1’s iris code is being transmitted – regardless of SG-1 being within the management room – they open the iris. The word comes by and Jack picks it up, recognising his personal handwriting. Contemplating that there’s additionally blood on it, they comply with its directions and lock the tackle talked about out of the system.

PROMPT: This episode offers with infertility. For individuals going by fertility challenges, it could really feel like an extremely lonely journey. One may really feel disgrace, guilt, and emotions of grief. As a part of #StargateMentalHealth, we would like individuals to know they aren’t alone. In the event you’re capable of, please share your story.

This isn’t one thing I can relate to personally however I do really feel so many highly effective feelings for anybody going by any troublesome expertise involving rising their household. I can solely think about how devastating it’s and the way isolating it should really feel, even among the many individuals supporting you. I’m sending all my like to anybody studying this who’s combating any of the experiences associated to this subject.

• Nemesis (3.22) – The staff has every week of depart as a result of Daniel needed to have his appendix eliminated. Jack’s going fishing and considerably awkwardly invitations Sam to go along with him. However then Jack is beamed up by the Asguard: Thor is dying and replicators (the primary time we’ve seen them) have taken over the ship. Jack tasks a hologram of himself all the way down to the SGC to ask for explosives, ordering the staff to not be a part of him as a result of anybody who goes up received’t be happening once more. Sam and Teal’c go up anyway, following Hammond’s orders. They plan to drive the ship to fritter away in Earth’s ambiance and gate out with Thor; the SGC unpack the second gate and so they can get again to Earth once they’re prepared. They’ve to attend till the final second to blow the explosives and simply once we assume every part’s okay, one replicator emerges.

PROMPT: It’s time for a vacation! Jack asks Sam to go to the cabin however Sam kindly declines, preferring to analyse the decay of Naquadah however you realize what they are saying: if you do what you like, you’ll by no means work a day in your life. What sort of work would that be for you? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I like doing music and I’d by no means need to change that however I do typically want that it might be a little bit bit simpler, that it might be not fairly such an uphill battle. It may be lonely and costly and scary as an unbiased artist. If I had some individuals supporting me and a few cash going into the tasks that wasn’t simply mine, I believe that I’d really feel much more assured and lot much less burdened, a minimum of from a logistical standpoint. Feeling alone in such an enormous, terrifying, typically poisonous business is basically arduous.

• Full Circle (6.22) – Anubis is coming for Abydos however Ascended Daniel is there to assist. He additionally seems to Jack, telling him that Anubis needs The Eye of Ra, so SG-1 head to Abydos. Skaara is engaged and asks Jack to be the equal of his finest man, which is so very lovable; then he asks if Jack might be coming to the marriage with Sam, the 2 of them significantly having fun with how determined Jack seems for an escape from the dialog. They’re nonetheless looking for The Eye of Ra when Anubis assaults and so they’re pinned down, leading to a really humorous trade between Jack and the Jaffa. He threatens to explode The Eye in the event that they’re not allowed to undergo the gate. Daniel has appeared on Anubis’ ship and warns Anubis towards touching Abydos, however then Anubis reveals who, or extra truly what, he’s. The System Lords arrive, threatening to assault Anubis, to cease him from turning into much more highly effective. Daniel bargains The Eye for Abydos’ security however when he will get again all the way down to SG-1, he learns that Skaara died from his accidents however had ascended and, since he wasn’t the one to assist him, he deduces that Oma Desala is watching him. However he doesn’t care anymore. Anubis was a Goa’uld who half ascended and the ascended beings have been initially the Ancients. Daniel needs SG-1 to seek out The Misplaced Metropolis, which he says has weapons able to destroying Anubis, so that they hand over The Eye and the Jaffa permit them to depart. The System Lords assault Anubis whereas Anubis makes an attempt to destroy Abydos; Daniel, having reappeared on his ship, summons the ability to cease him, solely to be ripped away by the ascended. SG-1 manages to flee simply earlier than Anubis assaults once more. After they return by, every part appears high-quality however then they spot Skaara: Abydos was destroyed and everybody was killed however they have been ascended, presumably by Oma Desala.

PROMPT: Ascending shouldn’t be the ultimate vacation spot however step one on a brand new journey and it’s an important metaphor for all times. Each time you stage up, you’re a novice once more and on a brand new path to discovery. What new journey do you need to begin? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’m in the midst of quite a lot of journeys now so I can actually say that if I added one other one, my head may explode. The subsequent journey in sight is my subsequent music challenge, as soon as I’m into the movement of releasing the challenge that I’m at the moment ending, and I’m actually excited for that as a result of I’ve been engaged on the present one for thus lengthy. In order that might be enjoyable. However I must wrap up some issues first as a result of in any other case I actually will grind to a halt (and curl up in a ball).

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• 1969 (2.21) – Simply earlier than heading by the gate, Common Hammond provides Sam a word and tells her to open it on the opposite facet. However when SG-1 does undergo the gate, the gate room disappears round them and a rocket seems above their heads. A check burn is initiated and Jack, Sam, and Daniel run round (not in contrast to headless chickens) attempting to get somebody to show it off and allow them to out whereas Teal’c calmly seems up and zats the rocket (his stage of full unphased-ness may be very humorous), shutting it down. They’re taken prisoner and Sam deduces that they’ve gone again in time to allow them to’t inform anybody something or try to alter something. They’re being shipped off someplace when a younger George Hammond reveals that the word in Sam’s pocket had advised him to assist them and, as soon as Jack convinces him of the reality, he helps them escape (though they should zat him to keep away from him getting courtroom martialed for his actions). They handle to get a experience with two hippies and their ridiculously embellished van, altering garments to mix in (they give the impression of being so humorous dressed up in ’60s clothes). Sam figures out {that a} photo voltaic flare should’ve despatched them again in time and that the dates within the word are the following photo voltaic flares, which they will hopefully use to get residence. In disguise, they speak to a youthful Catherine Langford to seek out out the place the gate is however then, once they attain it, they’re found by safety and are compelled to undergo barely early, ending up sooner or later as an alternative. They meet Cassie, who has lived a complete life, and he or she sends them again to their time. They’re so happy to see Hammond and he’s so happy to see them and he teasingly reminds Jack that he owes him over 5 hundred {dollars} in curiosity for the cash he borrowed in 1969.

PROMPT: Street journey with buddies! Was there a vacation, trip, or highway journey you took with buddies that helped together with your psychological well being? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

As an autistic individual, I discover holidays and journeys very hectic, even after I’m doing one thing that I get pleasure from; it’s not essentially an both/or scenario. I had a tremendous time in New Zealand after I was fifteen: there was simply one thing about the entire locations I visited that had me feeling actually at residence. I additionally love my journeys to Nashville; there’s quite a bit throughout these journeys that actually feed my soul, although I discover a lot about them so hectic. Probably the most effective place for psychological well being is a little bit city I’ve been to a number of occasions with my household in Norfolk: it’s quiet and disconnected and simply actually grounding. The whole lot about it simply appears to create more room in my mind and in my physique, which I’m in fixed want of (particularly in the meanwhile, though we haven’t been for some time).

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• Never-ending (10.20) – The entire staff, plus Landry, meet with the Asguard who, now dying of a degenerative illness, need to add all of their data and know-how into the SGC’s latest ship, the Odyssey. However as they’re ending up, the Ori seem. The Asguard beam all the way down to their planet and destroy it and the Odyssey destroys the Ori ship with ease. However with every leap by hyperspace, the Ori monitor them down and the one approach to stop that’s to close down the Asguard hyperdrive. However, as a result of it’s tied into each system, it’s going to take too lengthy so Sam beams the crew to security and places the ship right into a time dilation bubble to guard them from the incoming weapons fireplace and to provide her extra time to give you an answer, a challenge that might take months as a result of she’ll should construct a few of Merlin’s know-how from scratch (an all however not possible feat). Daniel and Vala are driving one another loopy (though their banter is hilarious), Cam is working the corridors of the Odyssey, and Landry is rising a backyard. Sam is compelled to confess that her unique plan received’t work so that they’ll be caught there even longer as she tries numerous various things (though she has constructed a matter generator in order that they will create something they want or need); they’re all very cranky, which I believe is fairly impolite and ungrateful contemplating how Sam is working her arse off to avoid wasting them. Time passes: it’s very cute to see them in regular garments; Sam begins studying the cello whereas the ship’s methods run simulations; Vala tries to seduce Daniel, which leads to him shouting at her (which is unnecessarily shitty even underneath the circumstances they’re in) till she truly cries however then they find yourself kissing; Landry’s backyard expands; they share meals collectively, together with Christmas dinner, and turn into an increasing number of like a household; Daniel and Vala clearly type an actual relationship and at one level we see her crying and Daniel comforting her, the implication being that she’s had a miscarriage (one thing that was confirmed by Robert C Cooper within the audio commentary and by Claudia Black at a conference); Cam remains to be going stir loopy and destroys his room… Twenty years on and so they’ve all gotten previous (the wigs and make-up are so dangerous). Landry dies and Sam has given up of ever discovering a approach to save them. Fifty years after creating the time dilation bubble, Sam broadcasts that she’s found out how you can repair however that sustaining the bubble has drained the ship’s energy, making it not possible to make use of her answer. Cam suggests utilizing the suspended beam of the Ori weapon, which might simply work, sending them again to the second earlier than Sam created the bubble and putting in her repair. The issue is that one in every of them goes to have to remain previous to make it work whereas the others will return to who they have been at that precise second in time. Teal’c volunteers as a result of he naturally has an extended lifespan than the remainder of them however he should bear in mind all of it whereas none of them will, which is simply so unhappy. Watching time reverse is so cool and Teal’c manages to cease Sam and so they perform the long run Sam’s answer and escape earlier than the Ori beam hits them. Again on the SGC, Teal’c has clearly advised them the define of what occurred to elucidate why he was capable of do what he did however he received’t share any of the main points. Sam acknowledges how, as arduous as it’s for them to not know, it have to be even more durable for him to not inform them. He’s clearly emotional (all of them have been, which wasn’t stunning because it was the final shot of your entire present) and agrees, the penultimate line of the present being Teal’c traditional ‘Certainly.’ Landry sees them off on their subsequent mission with a ‘Godspeed,’ one other Stargate SG-1 custom, and the staff undergo the gate collectively. It’s a beautiful final scene and it makes me properly up each time I watch it.

PROMPT: Within the closing episode of SG-1, the crew are caught on the Odyssey, discovering new methods to cross the time. In some methods, many people skilled one thing related throughout lockdown within the pandemic. What have been new hobbies you realized to cross the time? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I used to be finishing my Masters throughout the pandemic lockdowns (we had three to numerous levels within the UK) so I didn’t actually have time to choose up new hobbies; I used to be busy researching and writing music. I did actually get into the topic of intra and intertextuality in songwriting and offered a paper about how these strategies seem in Taylor Swift’s songwriting. That ended up main me down a really sudden highway!

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• The Pegasus Undertaking (10.03) – I discovered this episode (and the episodes surrounding Merlin’s gadget) to be very complicated out of order. The staff head to Atlantis and Daniel and Vala try to make use of the the database to seek out Merlin’s weapon to defeat the Ori. They aren’t getting very far and Daniel finally provides into Vala harassing him to simply ask the simple query. He tells her it received’t work however concedes and to each of their shock, she provides them a transparent, concise reply. Daniel maintains that it shouldn’t have labored and figures out that she’s not a hologram however an ascended being. She had been deceptive them as a result of the ascended don’t need a warfare with the Ori however simply as she does attempt to assist them, they pull her away. In the meantime, the remainder of the staff are attempting to make use of a black gap to cease the supergates however are attacked by each the Ori and the Wraith. They handle to destroy each ships, which is a victory, however Daniel has come to the heavy conclusion that the ascended received’t assist them towards the Ori.

PROMPT: With the Ori menace rising, SG-1 determine to hunt assist and go to Atlantis. This can be a good alternative about figuring out when to ask for assist. Do you may have problem asking for assist? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I don’t have problem asking for assist, per se: I’ve had quite a lot of follow as a disabled, autistic individual with a number of psychological and bodily well being circumstances as a result of I need assistance quite a bit. Nevertheless it does trigger me quite a lot of anxiousness. I fear that I ask for assist too typically, that folks will get sick of of me, that they’ll finally begin to see me as a burden and stroll away. I’ve had a number of individuals reassure me that that received’t occur however I discover it actually troublesome to consider: individuals are unpredictable however my disabilities are fixed.

seventh Might:

• The Fifth Race (2.15) – There’s quite a lot of world constructing on this episode. SG-1 gates to what appears to be an inclosed area with no home windows or doorways however then a tool reaches out of the wall and grabs Jack’s head. He slowly begins to talk an alien language and solely Daniel can translate what he’s saying. Sam and Teal’c go in search of the Ancients within the hope that they’ll assist however the DHD breaks and so they’re stranded on a planet with two suns, the warmth from which can kill them inside the day. When Jack learns about this, he attracts up plans to repair the gate and so they’re capable of get again. Then he builds a tool that he attaches to the stargate, boosting its energy; the gate then does one thing it’s by no means achieved earlier than and goes outdoors the galaxy. Hammond says that he received’t cease him however that he can’t give Jack a GDO since they do not know the place he’s going however, at this level, Jack isn’t even responding anymore and clearly must go. He goes by the gate and so they lose him on the system, the gadget he’d constructed burning out so that they’re unable to comply with him. Jack finds himself surrounded by Asguard and so they realise that he needs assist and removes the entire historic data from his mind; they inform him that the data led him there to avoid wasting his life nevertheless it wasn’t meant for the human mind, that they’re not superior sufficient but. The Asguard have been learning people and assume they’ve nice potential however they aren’t but prepared to interact with the 4 nice races: the Asguard, the Nox, the Furlings, and the Ancients (who constructed the stargates). Jack reminds them that they’re already out within the galaxy, that they’re a really curious race, to which the Asguard reply that they’ve taken the primary steps to turning into the fifth nice race. Again on the SGC, they haven’t been capable of get Jack again however then he comes again himself, again to regular.

PROMPT: In The Fifth Race, we study humanity’s nice potential. Put aside your home within the huge universe, even the world is such an enormous place. What’s your perspective in the way you match into the world? What’s your duty to the broader group? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I don’t know what my place on the planet is; I typically really feel like I’m solely right here as a reminder of what nobody needs to be, for instance of a damaged individual. It’s not significantly rational or wholesome however it’s how I really feel typically. Extra moderately, I really feel prefer it’s my duty to depart a spot higher than I discovered it, in no matter method I can, even when it’s solely within the smallest of the way. Once more, I take into consideration the Amanda Tapping quote I referenced earlier: “The most effective factor you are able to do is to make your nook of the world nearly as good as attainable.” I’d wish to assume that I may also help to make issues higher for autistic individuals, for individuals with psychological well being points, however I don’t at all times really feel assured about that. With the best way the world is in the meanwhile, it’s arduous to not really feel helpless, like nothing you do might ever presumably make a distinction.

eighth Might:

• Window of Alternative (4.06) – I like this episode a lot. SG-1 are on an odd, pink planet, working with an alien archeologist who abruptly activates Daniel and begins manipulating an historic gadget. It zaps the gate and abruptly Jack is again within the SGC commissary, consuming fruit loops and listening to Daniel rant about one thing. Within the briefing, each Jack and Teal’c state that they’ve already heard all of this, that they’ve achieved all of this earlier than. Hammond postpones the mission however at the very same second as earlier than, the gate crackles with power and Jack finds himself again in commissary once more. They repeat that day over and over and should persuade everybody every time. They fight going again to the planet to repair it or to persuade the archeologist to repair it however the gadget begins activating by itself, sending Jack and Teal’c again once more, however not earlier than the archeologist by chance utilizing Sam’s title and revealing that he does know one thing about what’s occurring. Jack determines that they’re in a timeloop and Sam plans to have them dial out in order that the opposite gate can’t dial in and repeat the loop nevertheless it doesn’t work: the gate received’t have interaction and the opposite facet dials in. Jack tries recording Daniel in a earlier loop to make the gadget translations transfer extra shortly however, in fact, that hasn’t occurred but so there’s no recording: they’re going to should be taught extra every time and relay it to Daniel to maneuver ahead with every loop. Their periods with Daniel get an increasing number of ridiculous, each of them slowly studying to juggle. They’ve misplaced monitor of what number of loops they’ve gone by and Jack finally ends up taking a loop off with the traditional scene the place he squeezes ketchup and mustard right into a face on a plate and screams about how he’s going to ‘lose his thoughts, go loopy, gonzo, three fries in need of a contented meal, WACKO!’ Daniel feedback that it’s sort of a possibility to do no matter he wished since issues will at all times reset, leading to weird and hilarious montage: Jack sing a pottery wheel on base, Jack biking by the corridors of the SGC, Jack and Teal’c taking part in golf into an open wormhole, Jack resigning simply to kiss Sam spectacularly earlier than all of it resets… He clearly enjoys reliving that one. Lastly, Daniel thinks that he’s labored out how you can shut down the loop and so they head again to the planet however the archeologist has put up a defend to forestall them from getting too shut and stopping him: he needs the loop to proceed in order that he can end studying how you can use the gadget to return in time and be along with his lifeless spouse. Though he wouldn’t have the ability to save her, he simply wished to be together with her once more. Daniel tells him that the gadget doesn’t work, that he’s preserving fourteen worlds caught in a time loop, however he’s positive that he can do it. And when she dies once more, he’ll return once more. Jack can empathise, having misplaced his son, however he is aware of that he might by no means stay by that once more. That offers the archeologist pause and he stops the machine. SG-1 arrive again residence, the time loop damaged. Within the commissary, nobody has ever loved oatmeal a lot (although it seems gross, like soggy cardboard). Sam shares that the Tok’ra have been attempting to contact them for over three months so that they’d been caught within the time loop for a least that lengthy, possibly longer relying on when the Tok’ra tried to get in contact. Daniel asks whether or not Jack did something loopy whereas he was looping, since there have been no penalties to something he did, and Sam simply seems considerably at Sam earlier than going again to his oatmeal. It’s a really humorous, very fulfilling episode nevertheless it manages to steadiness that with some actually poignant moments.

PROMPT: An extremely enjoyable episode with an necessary lesson on grief and shifting on. What’s one thing in your life that was extremely arduous however you have been capable of finding peace and transfer on from? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

I’ve talked about this form of factor already so I need to take a look at it from a special perspective, from a special sort of grief. I’ve quite a lot of trauma from remedy, from therapists traumatising me. Earlier this 12 months, my therapist traumatised me deeply throughout a session after which refused to apologise and gaslit me after I tried to get solutions from her – I wrote about it in additional depth in this publish. It was a really troublesome and distressing expertise and it took me some time to get my ft underneath me. However I handled it in actual time, somewhat than letting it ruminate for months, which I wouldn’t have been capable of do earlier than even when I had had the chance. I talked it by with lots of people; I wrote about it quite a bit, which helped to me perceive and categorical my feelings; and I didn’t repress my emotions about it. I haven’t felt capable of do any of that previously however I realized quite a bit from dealing with such an expertise this fashion and I believe the largest factor was studying to cope with each emotion because it hit me. I do know that that’s not at all times attainable due to what life is throwing you however I believe it’s so significantly better for you than holding it in your physique.

ninth Might:

• Misplaced Metropolis: Half 1 (7.21) – I like how this episode begins: Sam and Jack having a crossword competitors the place he’s intentionally placing in ridiculous solutions. They’re so lovable. He’s even late to an important briefing as a result of he was sitting in his truck. Within the briefing, Daniel needs to research one other Historical database (the headsucker from The Fifth Race) to assist them discover a weapon to defeat Anubis. They haven’t found out how you can take away it from the wall when Anubis assaults; they will’t take it and so they can’t depart it for him to seek out. Jack goes to destroy it however they received’t discover The Misplaced Metropolis with out it.Daniel goes to place his head in it however Jack pushes him apart and does it as an alternative; he clearly considers himself essentially the most replaceable, essentially the most expendable. Since they know the way it’s going to play out, Jack takes the weekend to kind issues out however Sam turns up, clearly desirous to say one thing to him however not capable of get the phrases out. She says that she ought to have achieved it however Jack disagrees, calling her a nationwide useful resource, a nationwide treasure. Daniel and Teal’c flip up with the donuts and so they simply hang around collectively (though Daniel is a light-weight and will get drunk in a short time). Then Hammond exhibits up and tells them that he’s been ‘relieved of command’ and the SGC might be shut down for 3 month evaluate. In the meantime Senator-Now Vice President Kinsey and President Hayes have introduced in Physician Elizabeth Weir to take over the SGC and Kinsey needs Weir to fireplace Jack particularly. With all of this occurring, Teal’c and Bra’tac return by the gate and Jack’s beginning to lose his means to talk English.

PROMPT: Misplaced Metropolis is the introduction to the beloved character, Elizabeth Weir, who’s thrust into an not possible place and but, she demonstrates poise, integrity, and intelligence. What are among the management qualities from Elizabeth Weir that you simply want to take for your self? Or add one other theme you’d like to debate.

The factor I actually revered about Weir is that, regardless of everybody round her attempting to push her someway – even attempting to control or straight up blackmail her into what they wished *cough*Kinsey*cough* – she stood her floor: she gathered the entire info she wanted, spoke to the entire individuals she wanted to talk to, after which made an knowledgeable determination on what she felt was finest, although – by her personal admission – she was utterly out of her depth. That steadfastness amidst chaos was actually fairly one thing.

tenth Might:

• Misplaced Metropolis: Half 2 (7.22) – Jack has found out the gate tackle and he’s packing, though he doesn’t know what he’s packing for. On the flight there, Sam reveals to Jack that she’s been ordered to take cost as soon as he’s now not in management and so Jack resigns, making it simpler for her. She’s about to say what she wished to say at his home however he simply says, “I do know.” The planet is uninhabitable however Jack has packed hazmat fits. He makes use of the Historical chair to be taught that The Misplaced Metropolis, or the weapon, is in Antarctica so now they’ve to return. He pulls out the ZPM powering the chair and prepare to depart. However Bra’tac has been ambushed and stabbed; nonetheless, as a result of he longer has a symbiote, he’s not killed and fights again, profitable the battle and beaming SG-1 again up. Jack heals Bra’tac and so they head again to Earth. Teal’c tries to say his goodbyes to Jack however Jack simply touches his arm and so they share a silent however very touching second. Again on Earth, Kinsey remains to be on his mission to have the SGC shut down and finally President Hayes tells him to close up; in response to his indignance, Hayes tells Kinsey that “[he] has sufficient on [him] to have [him] shot” (which can by no means not be hilarious. In the meantime SG-1 arrive in Antarctica, the place the Prometheus, cargo ships, and Air Drive gliders shield them from Anubis’ fleet whereas they perform Jack’s plan. It’s a very epic battle, fairly presumably one of many present’s finest. Jack makes use of the Historical chair to activate an power weapon – that appears like a colony of unusual jellyfish – and destroys Anubis’ fleet. However by that time, he’s fading, even with Sam wiling him to remain alive. They find yourself placing him within the stasis chamber and simply earlier than he’s frozen (primarily) he says goodbye. The three of them stand there watching him and Daniel feedback that he doesn’t assume that that is Atlantis so it’s not over but. However Sam is clearly having a extremely arduous time simply leaving Jack there.

PROMPT: That is the ultimate episode in our 60 For 60 Watchalong Problem for psychological well being. What are a few of your highlights during the last two months?

Wow, it is a arduous query. My psychological well being has been extraordinarily dangerous for a few years now: I’ve been within the worst episode of melancholy that I’ve ever skilled and I’m coping with fixed suicidal ideas. It’s been actually troublesome and actually painful. However there have been good moments and I’m so grateful for them: I’ve spent a ridiculous period of time snuggled up with my beautiful pet; I labored on my upcoming EP, which I’m so enthusiastic about; I went to Nashville and, though it was extremely hectic, I bought to have fun one my good buddy’s album launch and launch present with them; I bought to provide my pet her first pup cup; I bought to expertise the discharge of Taylor Swift’s new album, The Tortured Poets Division, and uncover that it was truly a double album with over thirty songs; I went to go to Autism Canines and performed with a few of their canines in coaching; I bought my first tattoo, which is a tribute to my Dad; I performed a enjoyable little present and bought some very nice feedback on my songs; I noticed my previous therapist once more and it felt so good to be believed and understood; and I’ve been wanting ahead to assembly Amanda once more at Basingstoke Comedian Con. Residing is basically arduous proper now however watching this present, counting all the way down to the Kickstarter and seeing Amanda… They’ve helped me to maintain going and which means quite a bit.

I like Stargate SG-1 and it’s been so pretty to be immersed on this world once more, particularly when actual life has been so, so arduous. It’s been an actual balm on my psychological well being, even when I haven’t been posting about it on social media a lot (social media is completely not a balm for my psychological well being).

Having stated that, I’m considerably horrified that sure episodes didn’t make IMDB’s prime 60 record, which is the place this set of episodes got here from: Not Dying Knell? Not Divide and Conquer? Not Grace or The Scourge or Collateral Injury? Not The Different Aspect or Line within the Sand, Morpheus or The Changeling? How might these episodes not make the record of finest episodes once they’re so, so good?! I additionally sort of hated watching the episodes out of order; I discovered it actually arduous to recollect what had occurred already, who had met who, which battles had taken place, and so forth.

However in the end, these are simply particulars. I watched the episodes I like alongside the problem and it’s been so fulfilling. I simply fell in love with the characters, the storylines, and the entire universe(s) once more… And I simply really feel so fortunate to have Stargate SG-1, Amanda Tapping, and The Companion in my life. I’m so excited to go to Basingstoke Comedian Con this weekend and see so many of those superior individuals and I can’t wait to see what this e book seems like. Try the Kickstarter now!

And with that, I depart you with this: my favorite Stargate SG-1 fan video of all time…